[Moreid] Caring hand

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"I just don't know what to do." Spencer speaks up while Derek is cooking dinner.

"Just cut it in pieces, you want me to show you?"

"No during sex"

"I will show you too."

"Oh"

"Oh?"

"You don't expect me to know?" Spencer asks confused.

"No"

"You won't get mad if I touch you wrong?"

"Never" Derek leans down giving him a kiss.

When they finally do it, they start of fast. Derek removing his shirt and pants and Spencer pulling of his sweater and then they just stay there for a moment like this, Derek leaning against the headboard, Spencer still in his sweatpants, his legs on each side of Derek and his fingers run over Derek's muscles and stop at his tattoos.

There is a slight change in the way Spencer looks at his chest, he wouldn't be able to tell if they were strangers and then he tracks the black lines again and again, in every way the tattoo offers it and even when Derek starts kissing him he is not to be distracted until Derek turns them over making Spencer yelp in surprise while Derek starts laughing and pulls Spencer into a laying position. "Oh god, I love you so much." He brings out between between his laughter and then watches as Spencer raises his hand again tracing the lines so Derek leans down kissing him on the cheek and then moving to the skin behind his ear, pushing his hands under Spencer's head, pressing himself slightly down on him while Spencer won't stop with the lines and Derek feels glad they in the end did wait this long.

That they took so much time Spencer feels comfortable doing that.

Derek keeps kissing him until Spencer breaks out into a chuckle too "That tickles"

"And here?" The man on top moves further down kissing at Spencer's neck and the man under him stiffens. "And here?" He moves just a bit down, it's hardly a different spot and does it again and again and Spencer eventually moans once quietly and Derek moves on to his chest his hands guiding up and down his sides while he kisses him on the mouth and then he places kisses down his upper body till he gets to his V-line and pulls his sweatpants and underwear slightly down and then stopping, watching Spencer squirm underneath him.

"Please"

"Please what?" Derek teases him.

"Keep touching me. Please"

"Will do, baby" With that he pulls off the rest of Spencer's clothing, careful to leave his socks on, and then moving back up making sure that he rubs Spencer's half hard dick with his underwear when he leans down on him and Spencer buckles his hips up to get more of it and moans under his breath into Derek's mouth who enjoys how helplessly desperate Spencer is just laying there, rubbing against him to get any sort of friction and then he starts flapping his hand and his eyes widen looking at Derek in shock. "its okay,its all good."

"Sorry"

"Nothing to be sorry"

"Don't stay at this,please"

"I won't" Derek moves down between his legs and keeps on were he left off, kissing his V-line while his hand wraps around Spencer's dick and slowly he starts moving up and down making Spencer squirm underneath him and pulling one knee up.

"Sorry" Derek ignores his apology and keeps going, a whine leaving Spencer's mouth and he checks on him quickly but then leans down again and after some more time takes him into his mouth.

Starting off slow, letting his tongue travel over the top of it, looking up to Spencer reaction who is with one hand playing with the sheet underneath him and he moves it over and over again over the top and then, when Spencer starts moving more and more moves up and down, slowly. Taking all the time he has while Spencer is biting down on his lips forcing himself to keep quiet and Derek reaches forward to Spencer's hand, letting his thumb stroke over the formed fist and Spencer grabs his finger and holds onto it.

"I am gonna- Derek- I am close-" The man moves one last time up and down and then takes his head up and steps from the bet, to take off his boxers but regrets his actions when he sees Spencer frighten expression.

"Just taking of my clothes" He explains himself and waits for Spencer's approving nod and then climps back into his old spot. "Spread your legs a little bit for me."

"Please be careful" Spencer whispers.

"Always"

"Promise me"

"I would never intentionally hurt you, I promise." He leans over Spencer to kiss him on the nose and then grabs the lube from the nightstand. "You ready? We don't have to do this we can do enjoy ourselves without it."

"I want to" Spencer tells him. "Please" His eyes meet his for a long second and then trail back to the ceiling while he shakes his hands out. "Sorry"

"You are all good, baby" Derek kneels back down and pulls a condom over, and puts some lube on his finger and places the other hand on Spencer stomach. "It's gonna be cold for a second, it's okay to tell me if it's to much." He waits on Spencer's nod and then moves his hand between his ass cheeks and to the hole, letting his finger run over it before pushing it in, while Spencer moans and then screws his eyes shut.

"Sorry,sorry, sorry"

"You are doing good baby" Derek gives him a moment to get used to the feeling before slightly moving up and down and when he adds the second finger, Spencer takes his hand up, tapping his own chest and then turning his head to the side and Derek slows down unsure if he should ignore it because it makes Spencer see that it is really not that bit of a deal to stim and on the other hand if he should ask because stimming often comes with a reason. "Can I do the third?"

"Yes please, need more. More." Spencer begs and Derek delivers moving them up and down until he pulls them out completely and Spencer leaves out a whine. "Need you. Need you. Please."

"One second baby"

"Empty, need you." Derek lines himself up with Spencer's hole. "Please Derek" He begs with his head pressed into the pillow under him. "Please. Please. I need you to- please."

"Baby breathe"

"Feels not good like this." He bites out and then relaxes for a moment when he got out what he wanted to vocalise for a moment now. "Please fuck me."

"I will do that, baby" With as much care possible he pushes himself slowly in and Spencer seems to relax and Derek moves up and down until he finally buttons up, making Spencer try to push down even further. "You good?"

"Yes" Derek takes one hand off the mattress and wipes Spencer's hair out of his face.

"Want to see your pretty face when I fuck you."

"Please" With a painfully slow pace he starts and Spencer is whining underneath him, his finger tapping against his chest and eventually his fist hits his head once and Derek immediately stops what he is doing.

"Don't do that."

"I am sorry." Spencer tries making himself smaller underneath him. "Don't hurt me"

"I won't,just don't do it either tell me what you need."

"Harder, please." Derek leans down kissing him and after that gaining on speed and eventually he is fucking him fast, hitting his spot over and over again while Spencer is moaning, and Derek can't stop himself either and then Spencer moans his name again and grabs his upper arm. "I am gonna-"

"I've got you" He picks up one last time on speed and Spencer cries out in pleasure, a tear sliding down his cheek and Derek comes with him leaning down on him, after pulling out, wrapping his arms around him. "I've got you, you are okay." Spencer is humming against the empty feeling.

He had told Derek before that that is the worst part about sleeping with men afterwards. The emptiness.

"I've got you, you are safe." Derek sits them up,Spencer having his legs wrapped around him until Derek stands up and walks into the bathroom letting in a bath and it takes some while until Spencer speaks again.

"I didn't do anything."

"You've got plenty of times where you can, this was about you."

"I love you" Derek smiles pushing Spencer's foam soaked hair back as he lays his head on his shoulder both sitting in the bathtub, Spencer resting against him just like in the art gallery in their first date.

"I love you too."