Shattered, Ready For Repair

The Heart Wants What It Wants

A lot of people say when it comes to your heart, your brain stops working and being reasonable. And all of general knowledge and logical sense disappears. I'm pretty sure that's what happened the day I met Damon, again people say love at first sight doesn't exist and I was one of those till this happened. I was walking with a lemonade in my hand and a massive pile of bags in the other when he bupped into me (he tends to argue with me about that), we looked each other in the eye and stared for a while.

I know this sounds like a cliche but it's true, that's how we met. Since then 2 years have gone past but things have unfortunately changed. Things changed drastically and many people suspected that I only dated him to be more popular. And soon after the a start of our relationship I had a mass of people taking care of my own personnel relationship. And since than I can't even step out of my house to my car without been captured by cameras.

I know it had always been my dream but I never imagined how hard it would be. Not only mentally but also physically. You always need to be perfect for the cameras and if your not, they critises you like if you had just murdered someone. I think what I miss most is my freedom and privacy. Damon doesn't understand, he doesn't seem to mind but I guess he has his mates with him at all times and they go through the same thing together.

I love him very much, but I feel like we're drifiting apart. I don't think he realises it. At the moment he's on tour but when he comes back we will have to talk. I'm really happy to say that he has asked me to marry him before leaving on tour 2 weeks ago but I hadn't even told my parents and the whole world knew. My next movie was going to be filmed in the english country, so I decided I would take the plane earlier even if my filming only started 8 days after everyone elses. And as I was meant to be the main character and the Hollywood Star, they only made me come for the essential scenes.