Lost.
Lonely.
Confused..
The only things you feel now and days. Yet you continue to put a smile on your face and fool everyone with the fake laugh you have. You can't help but think if people would even care if you were to disappear. If any one would even cry if you were to die... the cold truth is life is hard. We all act like we have no choices in the way life works. But we do... we can either pick our heads up and put the fake on your face again... or you can make a change.. You have the power to find yourself when you become lost. You have the power to let people in when you feel so alone. You have the power to think when nothing makes sense and you don't know what to do anymore. I, myself chose to fake life. It got me thousands of friends... but only because I was living a lie. I was so lost that I thought about giving up and turning back. I felt so alone even with thousands of friends. I was confused with who I was and how I got to be this girl I didnt know... I thought I was worthless and done for. So one night I made a choice....I got a chair and a rope. I decieded the easy way out was the best choice. As I put the rope around my neck, I cryed. I was scared. Not of dying. But finding out the truth. I just kepted asking myself how did I let it get so far... and before I could talk myself out of it. I jumped. I could feel the chills going down my spine. The last thing I thought about was my family and what would happen to them... I felt my heart racing as the rope hug on to my throat. And just when I thought it was over. I drop. The cheap rope busted before I could take my last breath. I now remember that night for being my biggest savior.. As I was on the floor, I knew what I wanted. I wanted to be me. Not lost, lonely or confused anymore. So the next day I quit faking. I made a change and it was for the best. I guess now that Im me.... I have no reason to be sad about what people think. Im me. And there's nothing wrong with being you...so don't fake it. And in the end you will see what its like to be truely happy.(:
