Kageyama's Cuts and Bruises | KageyHina angst

It really fucking hurts

Hinata POV:

Kageyama doesn't say anything. But tears fall out of his eyes slowly making their way down his face.

"Kageyama, what's wrong?" He responds with sobs, each time getting louder and louder to the point where he's screaming. He's in no shape to talk so I let him cry it out. All his pain. Or as much as he can release. I may not know specifically what that pain is. But it hurts nonetheless to see him crying.

"Hin... Hinata." His voice was like sandpaper.

"Yeah." my heart is aching.

"She... she hits me. A lot. Really hard and it hurts." the tears ready to fall out.

"Who does, tell me Kageyama?" desperation clear in my voice.

"My... mum. And I went to get milk from the coach's store and she said she would beat me up more than ever. Then... then he took me." his eyes widen at the scarring memory, his body shaking. All I can do is place my hand in his shaky one. "He took me to his house. He.. hurt me. A lot. Too much. He didn't stop for hours and hours. It hurt so bad, Hinata. It hurts more than anything i've ever felt. My mum hits, the man thrusts. I can't take it anymore. The only way I can escape is this. Even then it only helps a little. Hinata..." his hurting eyes lock onto mine "I just want to be free. I want to die but... but I'm too scared. But I don't wanna live either."

"Hey, don't say that," my heart continues to ache for him more and more.

He pulls up his sleeves with his shaking hands.

I wince at the sight. Deep red swollen cuts are everywhere on his arms. Slowly healing scars as well.

I look closer at his body. There's blue and purple marks all over his body, legs, arms. Every fucking where I look I see pain. I can't help it. Seeing him in pain hurts. It really fucking hurts. My tears release themselves as well but I can't cry right now. Kageyama needs me.

"Kageyama, it's okay now. I'm so fucking sorry you had to go through that alone. But i'm here now. I'll help you, everyone can help you."

Kageyama POV:

"No. You can't. She'll hurt you guys too. I'll never forgive myself if she does." even the thought of her laying a finger on my Hinata makes me want to cry, shout, scream. It makes me so scared yet so angry. It hurts.

"Yes Kagayama, we can help you and we will." a short pause lingers in the atmosphere. "Why does your mum hurt you?" his voice scarily steady.

I curl up into a ball. I have to tell him.

"Because Hinata! I'm a gay piece of shit. My dad left us and my mum releases her pain on me. She tells me I should just die and that it'd be better than her having a faggot as a son. I mean shes not wrong, but it still fucking hurts. I'm just a gay piece of shit that ruins everything. Every fucking thing for everyone! A fucking waste of space! Yes I'm gay and I know you think I'm disgusting or... or unnatural. You don't have to say anything." There he finally knows. The cries starting to well up in my throat. I've lost him too. I've lost everyone. I've lost myself; and the person I love most.

Hinata's silence burns.

"Kageyama, it doesn't matter if you're gay. I don't care if your gay. Your mum is the piece of shit here. A homophobic dip shit." his eyes widen, anger and frustration clearly visible on his face. "You are not a waste of space, you are not a piece of shit. You are not a faggot. You deserve to live. You deserve to be happy. You need to live cause... cause if you don't... "his voice cracks, painfully so. "I don't know what I would do without you. So please..." his sobs escape his mouth every few words, "don't leave me."

I try to keep in the tears and constrict the sobs. It feels like barbed wire is wrapped around my neck.

Both our faces filled with red lines from the tears. He scrunches his cute nose as he sniffles.

"It's gonna be okay now." His arms gently wrap around my body as he carries me up the stairs to his room where he softly places me on his bed and he gets in next to me. His warmth emitting onto my cold limp mass as I cuddle my huge body into his small frame. His arm goes over me. The tears fall out but I don't have any energy left to sob. I grasp onto his body harder.

"Thank you" is all I can muster but is only a spec compared to how I feel.

Hinata starts rubbing my back. My body slowly melts into his embrace. My eyes get heavier and heavier until I can't hold them open to see Hinata's face anymore and I drift away into a comforting darkness.

"I love you."