Eventually Forever

Prologue

What the hell is this? All of them wants me to get married, like really?  Like why do all of them wants me to get married? It's not like the last thing I want to do, I want to do it; I want to get, married but not now. It's just that, I don't feel that I've met the one (but I may or may not have). But that's not the matter; I can't get married now or I don't want to, yet. It's difficult for me to open up to someone, I am struggling with myself. My anger-issues, dominance, control-freakishness, protectiveness and moreover all those memories, nightmares and the beast inside me. It's difficult for me to sleep because of my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Insomnia, the more difficult part - to make everyone believe that I slept. It's not like that I want to keep them in dark, but more like I don't want to burden them with my problems and in this situation I am in, getting married, sharing your life with someone is a foreign thought for me. I can't just let my guards down infront of someone unknown. I know that I am not going to marry the girl I first see. It's just I am not sure. I know my family and I am sure that they will not let me marry any girl. But I will do it not for me but for the sake of my family. I will respect her and do all my duties as a husband but will I be ever able to love her? Am I capable of love?

What the hell? They want me to get married, like seriously? Why do they want me to get married now? It's not like I don't want to get married; means I want to get married not now. I need to accomplish some missions only after that I will get married. 

📌1st - Get a job

📌2nd - Gift my family members something from my 1st salary

📌3rd - Get enrolled in a Culinary School

📌4th - Go for a girls only trip with Pooja, Sakshi Akka and Geethu Anni

📌5th - I wanna get drunk

📌6th - Find my Nallave ana Kettve....................My good-but-bad Prince

📌7th - Fall in love

I can't get married without accomplishing these missions. But what will I do, huh? Means 1st 3 missions can be done after marriage also, 4th and 5th I've done before but the problem is the last 2 ones. Will I find my man after getting married? And falling in love? Will these two happen? My good-but-bad Prince, he could be the one with whom I'll get married, there is a possibility in that, right? And falling in love..........Love after marriages happen, right? Yes the living examples are infront of me:- Mom & Dad and Uncle & Aunty. 

But I've just completed my studies right now. After being away from everyone, staying in hostel for the past & years and now after the long battle with books when I've came back, they are looking grooms for me practically immediately.  Am I this big trouble😕😕? No way, not at all. I am a good girl, right? Okay, okay not too good but still. But I guess, I should give them a chance to look for grooms and I am so sure that they knows what's best for me even more than me. I am not cheesy and hopeless romantic, okay maybe a little bit, but still I know that fairytales doesn't exist and there is no prince charming. And I don't want a prince charming, I want someone who can understand an respect me and Love me.  Let's take a look and wait and watch what god has planned. 

Akka - Elder Sister

Anni - Sister -in-law

Guys.............

I am back after a short break from Wattpad due to Writer's Block

I was too frustrated that I have a story in my mind but you can't write due to the fact that you are not getting what to write.

Today also it was really difficult for me to write but I did it with a lot of inspiration from my dear friend dreamylover2020. So thank you.

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It's just both Jeeva's and Sameera's reaction when their families told them about Marriage. I know that it's not soo good but I really wanted to update and it's the best of the thoughts that crossed my mind. In addition, I really suck at 1st person POV, so please forgive me if it's bad.

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And DM me if there is something that I can improve..

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Until then,

Yours lovingly Ashi.......😘😘😘