This Is Not Love

Prologue

All I can see is him. Yes, him. The bright light of the moon shone over us through the window so I can't see his face that clearly. His face was blurry but I could make out some of his features. His pale face and his disturbing brown eyes. All together it complimented the silvery light of the moon. I was pinned down on his bed with him on top of me. I was nervous all over not knowing what to do but just stare at those deep chocolate eyes. Those deep chocolate eyes that held my emerald ones. I was seeking something in those eyes. What was I seeking exactly? Happiness? Loneliness? Blankness? Or was it...the way my face reflected in those eyes? I was so overwhelmed by the moment that my eyes were only fixated on his. Nothing more, nothing less.

But after a brief second, I was terrified. I was terrified by the look in those eyes.

His eyes shown a lustful of desire. The desire to consume me...all of me.

I was shaking because of the fact that he might do something. Something I wasn't aware of. And so I thought...

I was shocked. His eyes soften and had a hint of worry. I was even more shocked when he hugged me so suddenly. I was caught off guard.

He hugged me ever so tightly. He hugged me as if he didn't want to let me go. He hugged me as if he didn't want to lose me. He hugged me as if...he loves me.

I wanted to belive that he really loves me but a part of me was refusing it. I just don't want to jump into conclusions and get hurt in the end. But still I wanted to believe he loves me...the way I love him.

He loosened his hug and turned to face me. His bangs slightly covering his eyes. He looked at me and showed me his sincerest smile. I blushed. I looked away and I turned my head slightly to the right so that he wouldn't see my red beet face. But again I did the wrong move. He reached for my jaw with his hands and brought my face to his direction. Our eyes met and locked on each other and our breathing bacame heavier by the second.

Then...

Everything was so sudden and I couldn't catch up. He suddenly pressed his lips against mine, trying to break into my mouth. I blushed even harder, with my eyes closed and my mouth shut and intatct. What surprised me was that he broke from the kiss. I was curious.

I slowly opened my eyes finding him sticking out his tongue saying, "When kissing you should open your mouth." I was like...w-what???

I was about to say something but he got me. He got the right opportunity to kiss me. When I was about to say something I opened my mouth so carelessly i forgot that his lips were ready anytime possible. I lost. He entered my mouth. His tongue roaming around it, searching for mine too. They moved slowly and surely, touching each other non-stop. I broke the kiss gasping for air.

He moved me closer to him, our waists touching each other. He hugged me once again.

I can't deny this feeling. This feeling of contentness. This feeling of great happiness. I just couldn't believe this was happening right now. I just couldn't.

Was this a dream?

Senpai was right here in front of me. Near me. Hugging me. Patting my head with his large hands.

I couldn't help myself. I couldn't help myself to confess.

I whispered, " Senpai...Senpai...I-I..."

I trailed of.

He held me more tighly saying, " Shhh, I know."

I didn't say anything more than that. But, what I wanted to say was...

" Senpai...Senpai...I love you, Saga Senpai."

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OMIGOSHzxcbhdbsnc. Thank goodness I've finished the prologue. But still, not enough damn. Guys I wish you liked this story. Pleassssseeee share this to others you know who like this genre. THANK YOU. tee-hee~♡