CHANCE

Confessing to my love

          *The heart was made to be broken*

"So..are you ready?" Suzie asked me softly.

    "Yeah umm I guess, I'm really really nervous" I replied in a shaky voice.
"Okay here goes nothing.." I said to Suzie and she turned her lips into a thin line disappointed.

    "Hey let's think positive, okayyy" Suzie said in a confident voice.
     "Suzie this is my first time ever confessing to someone, so OFC I'm super nervous " I said hurriedly

   I was soo nervous but I made up my mind that no matter what I WILL CONFESS TODAY!
     

    Suzie was nagging me by telling me to do it, so I finnaly took a deep breath and approached Raymon, he was sitting in the cafeteria with his friends.

    "Um Hi guys" I said in a shaky voice, my legs were literally trembling.
"Hey " Lucas said.
 
   I smiled sheepishly.

   Taking a deep breath I said *uh Raymon* when I called his name his head shot up. I got a lil scared, when our eyes met I felt I was in heaven but then it felt like it was peircing through my soul. "What" he said coldly.

    *I- i- i I really like you Ramon" he let out a cold sigh and chuckled drakly.

"And you expect me to say those words back" he said darkly.  "Umm no i- i-" he cutted me off "Y'know girls like you don't even belong here, stupid and ugly have you even seen yourself even my dogs butt looks and smells better than your frickin face, ugh and hv u ever seen where you come from *glares* Ur parents are just doctors awh so poor, you can't even stand with me, I guess ur parents must have a very bad taste of choosing that they chose to keep you hah, And UR A BLODDY STALKER, u made various social accounts and used to stalk me, who even ever see such a frickin creep, rot in hell, well u ARE in hell now, this is your new hell bitch" Raymon said, this broke my heart Into billions of pieces  that now I didn't have a heart, I was in a verge of crying but I was trying my best to not cry, I don't want to show anyone that I'm weak. Now people were started out to take out their phone and started recording.

*We will show u what's real hell* Xavior replied with his husky voice. I was so creeped out and I wanted to disappear into thin air and never comeback. Everyone were staring me like I murdered someone, And as an intovert I wanted to cry harder.

     He showed me his true colors. I was heartbroken, I was shattered into pieces and it was hard for me to collect them because some were stolen..

                *Afer a few days *

     If you want to die, just fall in love and u won't even get to know that you died.

      I became hard as a rock, my face or voice showed no expression even my parents were soo worried about me, I decided to take a break from all this shit, from this unbearable pain, depression.

I started eating less, talking less. Instead I started studing more and my grades boosted up.

     I was getting bullied..whenever I walked people used to stare me like I'm an alien. The first few months were soo hard that I wanted to kill myself but now I got used it.

   "Carmen, CARMENN!! REPLY ME, DONT JUST WANDER IN YOUR OWN WORLD, CARMEN TO EARTH" Suzie shouted. "What Suzie, u said something?" "Carmen, I'm worried about you, y- you changed, I wanted my old and happy Carmen back!" She said to me with tears in her eyes
I immediately hugged her. "Sshh I'm here, it's ok let it out" I spoke in a soft yet cold voice.

           "Hey trash wassup ugly being" Kacy one of the Barbie's and my biggest bully slapped me hard, even Suzie got scared.

             "Hey you! U wanna get a beating too? Huh "she said in her Bitchy voice, I nodded and told Suzie to run, at first she hesitated but then she walked away crying.

  She started beating me hard, I think I have a fracture now. Oh no..dad's gonna get worried. Shit!.

   Yes I knew how to defend myself and fight but whenever I did it, I was outnumbered and they also bought knifes and blades sometimes they would torture me with it..my life was truly miserable.

     After 15 minutes of intense beating the boys came. They all smirked at my horrible state. "HOW COULD U DO THIS" I yelled. "Shut her up babe" Said Raymon a disgusted tone. "Your wish is my command" She said while smirking, just then one of her minions bought duct tape and put it over my mouth but they didn't cover my nose as Raymon stopped her. And when they were finished taping my mouth they tied my hands and banged my head on metal lockers which caused my head to bleed. Then they locked me in the janitors closet. I was crying very hard

I cried for four hours straight when the door opened and Mr. Patrick our Civics teacher saw me in the horrible state, and pitied me.

  Yes, I couldn't tell the teachers cuz they would loose their jobs because Raymons  dad was a big trusty of our school, which means he basically own this school.

      I couldn't tell the cops because I had no evidence.
          And I don't want my parents to worry, so I decided to suffer :(