I felt a pair of hands wrap around my waist, making me tense up. Jin-young whispered in my ear as tears began to build up in my eyes. "I'm sorry for hitting you, my anger got the best of me" sorry is all he ever says. He says sorry but does it again anyways, I don't believe he loves me. His way of love isn't love. It's torture.
"Did you hear me? I'm sorry" I pretended to be asleep which made him angry. Jin-young got up and left the room which resulted into him not coming back all night. Shaking my head I finally fell asleep.
Next morning
I walked downstairs and saw Jin-young staring at the blank T.V with a half way empty whiskey bottle in his hand. I covered my nose at the strong smell of alcohol coming from my living room. "Jin-young are you serious right now?" He ignored me and took a puff from his cigarette blowing the smoke towards me. He chuckled as I coughed, he knew I hated when he smoked around me.
"You need to get up and clean my living room, it smells like bare ass" Jin-young looked up at me as if I was crazy. "Who are you talking to?" he said in a stern voice making me uncover my nose and stand up straight. "I meant can you please get up and clean up your mess? I spent hours cleaning up yesterday"
He stood up and grabbed the back of my head pulling me towards him. "I don't know where you got that little courage from, but I run shit around here understand?" I nodded. He roughly pushes be down on the couch and walked away loving me alone. I covered my face and began to cry. He used to be the most loving and sweetest men on earth, but ever since his mothers death. He turned into a monster like my father.
I wiped my tears and went to finish getting ready to meet up with my friend for brunch
2 hours later
"His bum ass still putting his hands on you?" I sipped on my drink as I listened to my friend rant on about how much she hated Jin-young. "When are you going to leave him? because I would've done that a LONG time ago" I sighed knowing she was right. She was always right, Naja was the only friend I knew who was in a healthy relationship and could give me good advice. But I never took that advice.
"I'm going to leave him Naja, I just need time. I've been with him for 8 years now. It's not that easy" She rolled her eyes as the waiter came over with the check.
I walked into my dark house only seeing the light from the living room, and loud laughing. Walking into the living room I saw his friends and two women I've never seen before sitting on Jin-youngs lap. He looked at me before looking away and continued to talk with his friend. I said hello and went upstairs to change.
The door opened showing jin-young "Where were you all day?" I ignored him and walked into the bathroom to wipe off my makeup. He followed me and leaned against the door frame watching me. "You looked good today"
"Thanks" he hasn't complimented me in months, what was I supposed to say? "Just thanks? I give you a compliment and you say thanks?"
"Well what do you want me to say Jin-young, you've done nothing but degrade me for months. I can't even get you to look at me unless you're drunk or high. And you know what Naja was right about you all along. You are nothing but a bum ass loser who beats on women because you can't fight a real man" I looked back into the mirror feeling a bit nervous but not scared, i was tired of being scared of him. It was time for me to leave and start healing myself.
Jin-young scoffed and rubbed his chin before walking towards me. "So you're gonna leave me? you are seriously going to listen to a bitch like Naja?" I rolled my eyes and turned towards him only to be met with a powerful slap to my face, I fell on the floor and looked up at him. He sighed and bent down to my level and spoke in a deep stern voice.
"You want to leave me? of course you can babe. Only if it's by my hands" My heart began to race as he grabbed my ankles and dragged me out the bathroom. He got on top of me and tried to choke me but I poked both of his eyes which made him get off of me yelling in pain. "YOU FUCKING BITCH!" I ran towards the door as his friends were at the bottom of the stairs, worried as to what was going on.
"YOU DONT GET TO LEAVE ME Y/N! YOU DONT GET TO DO THAT!" I grabbed my things and rushed out the door never looking back.
4 years later
"Babe!" I called out to my husband panicking because I couldn't find my lashes. He came rushing to the bathroom with a worried look on his face. "What's wrong? did you hurt yourself?" I shook my head. "No babe I can't find my lashes" He let out a sigh of relief and chuckled.
"Why are you so jumpy today?" Hee-soo bent down and kissed my pregnant belly. "I'm just stressed about the baby that's all"
He looked up at me and kissed me deeply before walking out. It's been 4 years since I last saw Jin-young, he was doing good with his music career. Which I am happy for him, even though he hurt me in the worse way.
I was finally happy with a family, I smiled when I suddenly got a text message. I looked down as my smile faded away.
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