Be yourself

Do you know when a chapter of your life ends?

Even if I don't have a clue how to start this book, that most probably won't be read by anyone, I'm still trying to make something different.
I wanted for so many times to start writing on wattpad. Why? Well, most probably because it's interesting to post your life somewhere, but in my situation, because I went through so many situations that made me think maybe if someone would read this he or she would understand to don't do my mistakes or maybe at least one person would understand the pain that I felt in some moments of my life.
Anyway, going back to the main idea :)))
In the last 24 months my life changed so much and no, I'm not meaning that I ended up being a popstar or an influencer or something like this. I always was the lonely and quiet girl, not since I was born, but my personality ended up like this in highschool, when I tried for the 1000th time to fit in this world. What I wanna say is that, life is weird, unpredictable and also unforeseeable. In August I started talking with a neighbor, we knew each other since a kinda 10 years, we also grow each other kinda together, but at 12 years I stopped going out in my neighborhood and I started going in park with friends from school, so I kinda stopped talking with her for 5 years. After we found each other again (aka started talking) we were unbreakable, we were going out every single day (since it was summer holiday it's explicable). After school started she joined a group of friends at her highschool and we stopped talking as much as before. Months passed by and she made a boyfriend (which was also her classmate) and because I didn't wanted to stress her, I haven't pissed her to go out with me and to stop talking with her bf that much, which now I kinda regret. Why? Well, right now her relationship is kinda toxic 😅 and she doesn't realize this. I explained for so many times how it's not normal to do his homeworks and he to be jealous on her grades (logic she has bigger grades than him since she's doing his homeworks while he scrolls on Instagram) or to put her chance her behavior because he doesn't like some little things. Anyway, this is another story. The main idea is that, I was so attached of her, and she was not caring of what I was doing (aka being exhausted emotionally and mentally or having some easy form of depression, idk which one cause the symptoms I had are kinda the same).
Another part of my life is started im December and finished some days or weeks ago, when I translated illegally some stuff from a language to english. At first I didn't have a clue that thing is illegal and I found in March (kinda crazy, I know). I'm still sorry for doing that thing (this is also the reason why I stopped, my conscience couldn't hold anymore). The good part of all this thing is that I met wonderful people from all of the world and my english have improved a lot. English is not my first language so sorry the grammatical errors :"))
Right now I'm trying to start a good part of my life, which is to have an early sleep program, eat healthy, do sport, work for school, read some books (aka hobby) and have fun.
Until now, I haven't done any of these, today should have been my first day, but maybe tomorrow I'll be more productive (It's also Monday and a good day to start a new part of my life)
Even if most part of our lifes are imprevisible, like when I liked a boy for 2 years and went to church to stop liking him (I was really desperate 😂 at least it helped) or the part when I was bullied for 4 years of my classmates for my personally, body, tastes in anything (music, clothes, world, idk) or when I stopped being an introvert and started to don't give a shit on what people think of me (not even my family, and no, I'm not smoking, I'm not using had words,I'm not taking drugs, I have good grades at school and I even go to church,but I'm still not good in their eyes - a story for another time).
All I'm able to say right now is that is that you, yea, YOU, are the person who decide what will do tomorrow and of u wanna start a new part of your life, do it. If u wanna start a band, get a new haircut, practice karate, be a translator, start a LGBTQ+ community club or even go to moon, do it. Never let other people opinions hurt you (me meanwhile having on her block screen "Words in my head, knives in my heart" 😅😅). But really, don't be stupid and fool, like me. Just be who you wanna be.