With Love Comes Trouble (Thor Love Story!)

Finding Our Way Back

Alex~

        Im constantly jumping from high distances. Usually I love the thrill and the breeze flowing through my hair. But now every time I jump, Im only going to feel remorse. Knowing I just left my best friend, my brother, to die on a plane while I go chase after some dude. I should consider Thor as family but im not so sure anymore. I brace myself for a landing and hit the ground. The landing was soft because I landed in a flower bed. I didnt bother getting up. I covered my face with my hands and started crying. Hard.

Coulson wouldnt want me to be like this. I thought. He'd want me to get up and fight. To be an Avenger. To save the world. For him.

        I wipe my eyes and turn my head to the side and see an iron metal hammer lodged into the ground. I hear footsteps coming toward me. I sit up and pull my knees to my chest. Thor sits down on the other side on me and wraps his arm around me and pulls me close.

"Why Coulson? Coulson never did anything wrong. He was a good man." I said inbetween sobs while Thor rubbed my back softly.

"You are right. Coulson was a good man. He didnt deserve to die the way he did." Thor said trying to calm me. But for some reason, he didnt seem to sound sincere. I heard it and I know he was being sincere. But I couldnt accept it.

        I understand Coulsons death was not his fault. Loki is adopted. Thor is to gentle with people for anybody to ever compare the two. But the fact that they are family is still getting to me. I gently push his arm off of me, get up and walk off a bit. There was a tree nearby so I leaned against it. Using my abitlities I try to feel everything around me. The nature of things. Feeling the life of the ground and the trees, the flowers and even the leaves on the trees. It made me feel better. That was until I got to the patch of flowers Thor was sitting on. He feels bad that Loki killed Coulson. He knows that I cant completely forgive him for a while. Thats why he hasnt gotten up to try to comfort me again. Finally I feel him stand up and make his way toward me. I keep my back toward him still crying but softly. He wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck. 

"Please. Just leave me alone right now." I said barely aduable. But he heard me. We are out in the middle of nowhere. Theres basically no sound. So my whisper was like a shout out here. Thor let go of me and walked in front of me. I didnt look up. I just looked at the stray flower sitting all by itself next to my foot. Thor placed his index finger and his middle finger gently under my chin and lifted it up forcing me to look at him.

"You are not the only one mourning the death of Coulson. He was a dear friend and-" I stopped him.

"A dear friend?!" I shouted this time. "He was my family! The only one I ever had after Peggy. After my parents were killed." I whispered that last part hoping he didnt hear.

"I am here for you. And I promise you that Loki will not go unpunished for his crimes. I will personally throw him in that jail. I'll make sure he can never hurt you again." He said trying to cheer me up. I cross one of my arms and rest the other ontop of it, biting my thumb nail. Thor wipes away a tear on my cheek. I turn my head away.

"Just give me time to think." I said turning my back to him once more and walking away to find another tree.

       While im walking I turn my hand in a swift motion growning a couple more flowers for the stray that was left alone. I stopped and turned back to see Thors reaction. He was shocked but mezmerized by the beauty of the grown flowers. But they werent as pretty enough as the stray. The others were just company. Instead of leaning against another tree I walk back onto the open field and put some distance between us two. I look out into the water that wasnt to far from where I was standing. It was a lake with crystal clear water and there were big hills on the other side. The water was calm and still. It reminded me of Coulson. The way he never got angry. He was always calm. I wonder how Melinda is going to act when she hears he's dead.