Sairat

Reconciling

This is a continuation of the previous chapter.

Even though Virat and Sai reconciled in a different manner in the show, there is going to be a drastic change here.

Again, I wasn't satisfied with Sai feeling guilty for Virat's state in the hospital and crying. I wanted Virat to do something more. So here it is

Healing does not mean that damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls our lives.

Abuse can be of any form. Physical, emotional, sexual, there is no limit to the number of abuses a person can face. The effects of abuse depend on the person, how is he/she/they taking it? For a person who was in trauma and is recovering, when abuse is added, then the process of healing would be difficult. Imagine, a person who is kidnapped for marriage and then gets to see her/his/their own father getting shot, followed by marrying someone, to fulfil the promise of your father. Sai has gone through all, in a short span, within days her life changed drastically. But never, did she give up, she stood for herself. Even when whole family was against her, she always stood for what’s right, but all she got in return was abuse. Her last straw, was when her husband too joined them. When Virat was requesting her to go home with him, even when her heart said yes, she knew going back would deeply hurt her self-respect and it would be against the teachings of her father. She did what any girl/woman would do, she refused. So much had occurred but, she wouldn’t give upon her studies. She came back to Nagpur to live in a hostel room, a separate one, she did not want to share with anyone else. Every night, she started getting nightmares, about everything and anything. She used to wake up in the middle of the night. This went on for weeks, she knew they wouldn’t stop, so started trying all the remedies available in the internet, that too did not work. Then on the insistence of one professor from her college, she started going to therapy sessions. Slowly, she started getting better and was living her life, how her father wanted. Even though everything was going on good, Sai has a void feeling, she knew what it was, but does not want to acknowledge it.

The strength of any relation is only understood when we are separated from that person. We keep missing them, thinking about them. True to that, Virat has started to realise the importance of his wife, in his life. Never a moment goes by, where he is not thinking about his wife. It’s been almost 3 months that, the incident happened. No, she is not completely ignoring him, they were improvements, but he knows he has to wait for more time, for her to be normal. When he returned back, he gave her space for some time. Once he was satisfied that, she got the space, he started to pacify his wife. Once he got to know that Sai was in the hostel, he started visiting Sai with her favourite flowers. At first, whatever he did either she roughly handed them/threw them or ignored. But slowly she started accepting them, when she understood how sorry he was. He used to start early from home and then wait near her hostel, so that he can drop her in the college and used to go to office. He again used to go to college in the evening to pick her up. He started having food like chaat, which Sai is fond to impress her. He started doing every such thing, that his wife enjoys. His day starts with sending Sai cute texts. Who would have imagined Virat would do all of these? Not only, Sai started understanding how he felt, even Virat started enjoying all those things. Even though till now everything was going in a good pace, on every Tuesday and Friday, Sai would not go with Virat back to hostel. He tried finding it out, but as usual he could not find anything.

Today was Tuesday, and he decided to follow her silently. Once Sai came out of college, she started going in the opposite direction and Virat followed her. Once he saw where Sai was going inside, he was scared. He waited till Sai came out. Once Sai was out of the place, heading back to her hostel, Virat went inside the clinic. He asked the receptionist which place was this and what work did Sai had. When the receptionist did not tell anything, Virat used his police powers. “Sir, her name is Sai Joshi, she is a patient here. She comes for therapy sessions on every Tuesday and Friday. And has been coming since the past two month”, said the receptionist truly scared. Virat knew that Sai was hurt and faced many problems, but he never estimated how huge it was. He went home, freshened up and sat near the table where Sai used to read and picked up the plant and spoke to it “I am sorry Sai, from the moment I came into your life, it’s been nothing but a pain to you, and its high time I replace them with happiness”, saying he looked at it once again and departed to sleep.

Sai found something different today, she did not receive any message, he wasn’t there to pick her up and, in the evening, when he wasn’t there, she started worrying. “Where could have Virat Sir gone? He could have at least messaged me, but no he did not. What does he think of himself?”, thinking to herself, she started going back to hostel, unaware of the surprise.

Virat was satisfied with what he has done, smiling to himself he knew Sai would like it. Just then Sai opened the door, seeing Virat there she was relived and the first thing she did was hug, as if her life depended on it and started to scold him for not informing and disappearing like that. Virat’s happiness knew no bounds, he wanted to scream and tell everyone that, his wife has hugged him and showed him that she cared for him. Once Sai calmed down, she started to look around and take in the serenity before her. The room was decorated with flowers and candles, but what caught her eyes was a small tent like thing decorated beautifully (the above picture). When she looked at Virat, he was already staring at her, blushing she asked “What is this Virat Sir?” “I will tell you everything, but first will have food and then sit peacefully and talk”, said Virat. “Okay Virat Sir”, said Sai confused. After they had dinner, Virat went on tell her, what he found the other day, and how much he regrets everything and that, this gesture was to show, how much she and her happiness was important to him. Sai had tears in her eyes, she knew Virat Sir tried to show how sorry he was, but all of this and what he had been doing the past three months was really overwhelming, she told him what she felt at this moment, “Virat Sir, from the past three months, what you have been doing is something I did not expect, you showed up every day, even after knowing that I would be angry. You did everything you could do, sometimes leaving office too and now this. As much as everything makes me happy, I feel that maybe I dragged it too much and am sorry for that”. “First things first I should not hear sorry from you. You were hurt, in fact I hurt you badly and even if you take more time, I will not have a problem. All these, I did because, I want my wife to be happy, where ever she is.”, said Virat with sincerity flowing in his voice. “Virat Sir, I forgive you for what happened, but to come back to home it would take more time for me”, said Sai. Virat was happy, so happy that tears started coming out. “Thank you, Sai, thank you so much, and you coming to house will be your choice and I won’t force you at all. Aah, aai, Shivani Bua, Mohit would really feel happy once they hear this. Thanks for making my day Sai”, saying he kissed her fore head. “I really miss all of them, I want to meet them, why don’t you bring them tomorrow so that I can meet them”, asked Sai. “Sure, done”, said Virat and spent rest of the night talking everything and anything.

Hey guys, thank you for taking out your time and reading this. Hope you like it.

Again a long chapter. I changed the part where things were normal immediately, for a person to recover from such hurt or else trauma it would take minimum time. Also, I felt Sai needed the therapy in the show too, since it never happened, I am including here.

I hope I did justice to this part. Please let me know how it is in the comment section. 

Until next time.