HI everyone, i'm so sorry for not updating i had a lot of problems in 2014 i eventually for got to update this so now i finally can. Thank you for waiting patiently for a whole year, i appreciate that.
Lucy's POV
I felt no need to breath anymore, to talk to anyone, to do anything. My heart was just to broken to beat, the man that made my heart pump for me was now dead. I could only cling on to his body, my voice went horse for screaming so much and hot salty tears ran down my face.
I felt myself being pulled up by cold metal hands, I didn't resist "Flame-Brain..." The familiar voice of Gray muttered, my sight went blurry. All I heard was blurred voices of my friends and silence, the only clear thing I see was his face. A saw a flash of red, red hair, Erza...
She pulled me to her armor covered chest, I could only sob as she rocked me back and forth. "H-He t-t-to-ok h-him a-aw-" "I know Lucy, I know. " Her own tears fell, she rubbed my hair. Gray picked up Natsu's corpse I wanted to run and tear him away. I was ready to get up but Erza held me tight, "Lucy it has to be done." She spoke gravely. I understood, a funeral was about to come.
That was the last time I've seen my love alive, no knew how much pain I felt, not even Levy.
A week passed since his death but it felt it was just a minute ago, so clear, so evil. I hate fate for what it has done to me, I don't even think there is a God anymore. If there was, I'm sure that He would have never taken him away from me. They had tried to urge me to come but know I couldn't. I was sick, vomiting everyday and waking up ill, I was that affected huh?
"Lushie." A soberly Happy said with large teary cat eyes, he was dressed in a small black suit. He didn't understand even if he was practically Natsu's son. "Please go to the funeral with me, I don't want to come alone." I shook my head, I can't go, I just can't. "No, I can't. You go with Wendy and Carla (that's how it's pronounced in English), I'll stay." He silently left without protest. I laid back down on the bed, more tears ruining my makeup.
I refuse to come to the funeral, I could only lie on my bed dressed in black. "Lu-Chan, please come out." Levy begged through the door in a hopeless attempt, I didn't respond back. "Lucy come out now!" Erza demanded but it didn't faze me a bit. The guild banged on my door trying to get me leave my room but I didn't, I was lifeless.
I ignored their calls and eventually they gone away, they gave up leaving me to drown in my sorrows. It seemed like hours passed but in truth it was minutes, "Lucy open the door." A powerful voice commanded that shook my room, I didn't obey, "Lucy get up or I'll force you myself." At that second demand I obeyed that time, I uneasily stood up and started to the door.
I opened it revealing an old man with an aura of dominance, Master glared at me not with anger but with a stern face. He gestured me to follow him, I reluctantly did into the living room. He pointed at the couch, "Sit down." He ordered, I did as I was told. I struggled to say something, "M-Master, y-you don't understand. I love him, now he's gone! No one understands how I feel, I don't have anyone else. He was the only person I had left." I put my hands on my face and cried again, my tears would never stop. He didn't say anything, just watched me cry.
"Listen to me, Lucy." I felt him remove my hands away, his black eyes staring back in my own."You're being childish, you think you have it all bad but you don't. I know you love Natsu but don't you think that we do too?" That sentence snapped me out of it, my head snapped up quickly and he continued. "When my wife died it broke my heart but I moved on after those years passed by." Was I wrong, maybe he did relate to me or I was just imaging things. "Macao wife died in childbirth, he knows how you feel." My eyes widened in surprise, Romeo's mother was dead. I was wrong, they did understand and I was being selfish, I decided to not think about the other's feelings and worried about my own.
"That boy change this guild, like my very own child. He was a light that brought warmth to everyone, and to this day he still is our light. What would Natsu say if he were here?" He was right, Natsu would say 'Oi Luce, stop being lazy!'
"Master I'm sorry. I was being selfish." He grinned at me, put a wrinkled hand on my shoulder, "Child stop being so serious, now get along, everyone's waiting for you." I nodded and stood up, "Oh and one more thing, be careful with that baby around, they'll be a handful." I stared at him in confusion, "You'll find out soon." I ran out the house into rain, I needed to be there just to see him one more time.
