"i hide my true feelings because in actuality i'm scared of rejection"

lost in your eyes, drowned in your love

Warning: Sexual Situations

The past few days went by surprisingly well, I hadn't had any bad thoughts for a while... Things were actually looking up for me, but I didn't want to jinx it, because literally anything could go wrong at any point in the life of Jade West.

Tori and I have been dating for almost a year now, and we've had our arguments, but she hasn't left me, even when things got really heated, and I'm not going to lie - the make-up sex afterwards was... really fucking good..

I was hanging out with Beck since we were really good friends and he was actually super supportive of Tori and I, and I asked him if I should pick out a ring... I've been wanting to ask Tori to marry me for a long time now. I love her and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her.

"Which ring were you thinking of buying? Planning on going all out with it or doing something simple for now?"

I pondered for a bit. Tori deserved the best and most extravagant ring, but I also wanted to make sure she would be okay with it, so I told Beck I would get her a ring laced with small diamonds, as I wanted to propose to her tonight.

"You really love Tori, huh?" Beck replied, with a warm smile as I nodded, smiling back. I kind of felt bad because well... at the end of the day, Beck and I were still exes, and I just felt.. oh, god... Get it together, West...

"Hey hey, Jade, take a breath, you're hyperventilating, what's wrong?"

I breathed in and out about five times before responding that I felt bad for bringing Beck along to find a ring for Tori since... him and I were dating in the past. Beck hugged me lightly, smiling.

"Jade, all I care about is your happiness. If you're happy with Tori, I'm not going to be that crazy-ass ex who tries to steal you back, that's something a fucked-up person and asshole would do, and I'm not going to ever do that. I'm serious. I'm happy for you and Tori, and I always will be. Now, hurry up and pick a ring so you can marry this girl and we can celebrate the Wests? Er, Vegas?"

I giggled, wiping away tears before correcting him that Tori and I agreed we would share my last name before he hugged me again as I picked out the perfect ring and made my way back home to Tori.

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That night, after our date, I curled up to Tori. She smelled really nice, so I cuddled close to her, kissing her super soft lips as I smiled at her.

"What're you thinking about, Jade?"

I responded I was thinking about her, yeah, okay, it was cheesy and I internally cringed at it, but it made Tori smile and giggle, sooooo win?

"How'd I get so lucky to have you, Jade?"

I blushed. D-dammit, Tori...

"I'm the lucky one, Tori... For so long, I never saw you for anything other than a punching bag and someone I just insulted... but you are... everything to me, and I can't imagine my life without you.."

Tori moved to say something, but I politely shushed her... it was time.

"W-wait... let me finish.. please.. T... I love you so much, and I can't see myself with anyone else with you... I was out shopping all day with Beck and I picked out something that... means a lot to me, and.. I hope it'll mean just as much to you.."

I got down on one knee as Tori covered her mouth in a gasp.

"Victoria Vega... will you marry me?"

Tori nodded up and down as to say yes as I slipped the ring on her finger before she attacked me in kisses as I returned the kisses, but I felt hot, and we were in a... compromising position, so I leaned up to kiss her passionately, grabbing her waist and pulling her down to me as I heated up the kiss.

"Mmm, Jade..." 

I bit her lip as she flipped me over, kissing my neck as I let out a soft moan before she kissed my neck again, and I rolled my eyes back, her hands finding my hips as she grinded against me, another moan exiting my mouth.

"M-more..."

Tori removed my shirt, squeezing my breasts once, but hard, getting yet another moan, this one a bit louder out of me. She then grabbed my arms, holding them with one hand as she proceeded to trace a finger down to my cargo shorts, teasing me a bit before she made her way back up to my lips, putting a tongue in my mouth as I instinctively sucked on it, getting a moan out of her as she slipped a finger down into my underwear, teasing me achingly.

"You like that, baby?"

I nodded desperately, practically begging her to make me feel good. She smirked as she slid her finger right inside of me, and I cried out from how quick it was.

"Shit.. that didn't hurt you, did it..?"

I smiled at her, my face slick with sweat from how turned on I was, I wanted to speak, but it would come out as gibberish because I couldn't think straight, I was hot and bothered, and horny. I gave her a nod of my head, ensuring her she could never hurt me.

"I'm gonna do it again, then-"

Tori placed herself on either side of me to where she was kneeling over me as she inserted her finger inside of me again, sliding it in and out slowly and I bit my lip, my eyes rolling back in pleasure as she sped up a bit, which elicited a loud moan from my mouth and her name being yelled. Thank God we don't live in an apartment. The pleasuring got faster and rougher until the pressure was too much, forcing me to buckle forward against her, letting out a strong "unf" sound, which let her know I orgasmed from her skills.

"How was that? To be honest, I've never... actually done that before.."

I breathed heavily, moving my hair out of my face as I kissed her lightly, smiling.

"That was amazing... but now it's my turn."

I smirked, causing her to smirk back as we proceeded to go to round 2 upstairs, myself leading her to our shared bedroom.

Needless to say, I couldn't wait for the day I could call her my wife.

To Be Continued...