Dearest Reader,
Sleep away camp is soon.
Nice.
It will be nice to get away from my mother.
My mother doesn't like me very much,
she yells. and curses. and slaps.
I can't figure her out.
I was triggered earlier today.
I wish I could think of witty responses in the moment and not walking away from it.
I walk away from problems a lot
bullies
brothers
mothers
the whole lot
I managed to hide something from my mom
I'm happy about that
why do the smallest things make me cry?
things that mention childhood
it hurts
it hurts
I'm not a child in my mothers eyes
more like a monster
who am I
what am I
am I truly human?
am I human if I don't want to be?
if I want to be a wolf, free to live?
but hunters would kill me
...
does anyone have a peaceful life?
I know I don't
oh well
camp was nice I suppose
I don't know if binging sad fanfics is a good way to cope..
oh well
songwriting is fun
maybe I'll post some of my songs I write
goodbye for now,
NB
