My life

Chapter 1

Without much ado, I'll introduce myself, my name is katy, I'm 18 years old at the moment and I'll tell you the story about my life and the direction it has taken over the years, the things that have happened and how much they have changed me.

You are probably thinking that it is strange to write something about my life because you don't know me or it is not interesting anyway and the answer would be that I even think the same. In every Teeni film it is about the life story of a character and yet we find it interesting, but that is only because the stories of these characters are made up and built up so that people find it exciting. My life, on the other hand, is boring in my view, because I spend half the day looking at the clock and looking for something to do until the day is over. Nevertheless, I also think that it will help me to describe my life here, in order to possibly find a meaning in my life somewhere in between everything.

I wouldn't describe myself as depressed now, as I sometimes have periods when I'm fine and others when I'm not, which is normal. Still, I wouldn't mind dying, I can think about it all the more, but I don't find any meaning in life. I have no dreams, no goals and nothing else I want. It wasn't always that I had no goals or dreams, when I was little I wanted to be a lawyer. The thought of that motivated me from an early age to get good grades, I was very cheeky as a child, but all the more motivated in everything. I can still remember how often I got into fights with boys because they had done something to me or a friend and how they were always afraid of me hahaha how I ran after a boy when I thought he was cute and told him all the time, or generally did everything without any shame because I didn't care about the opinion of others. I did what I wanted and what I thought was right. I miss those times very much... Looking back, I am embarrassed by the memories of it, but the fact that I dared to do it tells me that I have nothing to regret. I was loud, optimistic and direct, just a normal child... Today I am no longer like that. I am afraid to report to school, or even to go to school in general. I hate myself and my body and I am quiet... the complete opposite of my little self.