SAVE ME || jjk

7. family

I'm so tired. My eyes puffed as I cried for soo long. I'm devastated. I stood under the hot shower thinking about y/n. After a long shower I wrapped myself in a towel looking into the mirror. My eyes fell on the razor in the stand. I'm not stable right now. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know when I picked it up but that razor it's in my hand now.

I can't forget y/n's cuts on her palm. I can't forget the blood I saw on her hands. all I can see is her teary face. I cut myself on my other hand lost in my thoughts. I saw blood oozing out but it felt so good as this isn't the first time I'm doing. It pained in the beginning but after few cuts it's all numb. A smirk formed on my face Thinking "this is how y/n must have felt or worse". I'm sorry y/n I'm not there for you when you need me. But I can atleast do this for you". I thought for myself seeing those fresh cuts. I was once addictive to this habit but I stopped when y/n tried to copy me. I cleaned my self again and came out put on warm clothes and I went to bed as I'm so tired and my eyes are heavy.

The boys pov:

We're all siting in living room. Processing what just happened till now. We're just speechless. We never knew he's suffering like hell for so long. He never showed us that side of him. He used to all cheerful playing around with us. We felt bad so bad for y/n too. She's too young to face this. When we dropped y/n outside the van read LILY ORPHANAGE our hearts shattered into pieces.We saw how cruel they're being treated. We wished it isn't true. "Guys we need to be there for our taehyungie. He's going through a hard time. We should look after him" jin spoke and everyone nodded as a Yes. Jhope and jimin went to the room saw tae sleeping they silently closed the door and came and informed others. " He must be exhausted he should eat something. Let's make dinner first" Suga said. "Meanwhile let him rest" Namjoon said. They all agreed.

An hour later dinner is finally ready. "Anyone bring taehyungie here dinner is ready" Suga announced. Jungkook and j hope went to the room to wake him. "Taehyung-ah.... Taehyung-ah.... Wake up let's eat something " j hope said patting on his stomach. He slowly opend his eyes looking at us "hyung I have no appetite let me skip for this day" he said. " Hyung please if you're not coming we're also not going to eat" jungkook said. "Ahh.. please" he requested and woke up and sat on the bed. "Just eat a little" j hope said. Agreeing to that tae got off the bed. He's weak too. Jungkook put his arm over his waist and helped him to  walk.

We all sat at the table. Food is being served. There's an absolute silence at the table."wahh this tastes soo good" Mmmyumm" Jin and Jhope are trying to cheer evryone so that tae wouldn't feel awkward. They're now talking about the dance practice, about the funny lines they should include in Their songs and all. Tae also cheered up a little seeing that members felt at ease. We finished our dinner tae got up and went to the sink to wash his hands.

After washing his hands he took a tissue wiping his hands he and jungkook bumped into each other. Jungkook holding the bowls hit tae's hand and he winced drawing everyone's attention. Jungkook quickly ran past him placed the bowls near the sink came back again quickly "I'm so sorry hyung ... Did I hit you bad " he said looking at taehyung worriedly. "No no it's okay I didn't see you coming" taehyung said. Jungkook saw tae's long sleeve had some curry fell when they bumped into eachother. " Hyung your sleeve..... Ahh... Let me help you" he said taking tae's hand. He again winced . " I- I'm sorry hyung I didn't mean t-to" jungkook said confused and worried. Jimin came hearing tae's wincing " what happened tae" he asked. He took tae's hand but tae refused to give his hand.