18 Months With Him

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Chapter 4 | panic

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Jordan

Weeks. Weeks of us not talking to eachother and the tension in the pod was growing thick. I didn't want to admit it but i missed him, everyone was choosing sides. But I think garza was getting the worst of it, he was going crazy to the point where he had begged someone to buy him earplugs. There was at least fifty people in here and it was quieter then ever. That surprisingly didn't help me sleep, time was inching towards when a gaurd would open the door and there would be some reminder that this wasn't just some hell i had to live in.

The lights turned on and the door opened, within seconds everyone was up and going downstairs. It wasn't long after i sat down with my tray that i noticed Anthony across the room. " your staring again" garza said picking up his fork

I rolled my eyes looking back down at the plate " shut up" i muttered, when i first met garza that would have been considered disrespectful but the reaction i got from that was a laugh and a small sympathetic smile

I didnt say much after that, and that's how it was for a while until my eyes found there was back to Anthony who wasn't even glancing at me " i just don't understand" i said

which was true, i didnt understand what i did wrong and it was almost making me angry.

Garza dropped his fork like he had lost all of his ability to eat " oh my god, just go talk to him before i loose my fucking mind" he said

I put my hands up im defense " you don't got to be so overdramatic" i said standing up not being able to help but laugh slightly at the mix of anger and disbelif left on his face as i walked away

I walked over to his table and didn't have to say much because he already knew what i came over for. He said a small bye to who he was sitting with and followed me up the stairs to the same cell we hid in just weeks before the fight.

As he walked in behind me he leaned against the wall crossing his arms " what do you want?" He asked

I sighed " i want to know why your so upset and why you fought that guy even though i told you not to" i said

I watched as the annoyed look on his face turned into a amused face, not the normal one though. One that mixed with some other emotion i just couldn't guess " oh don't make me laugh Jordan" he said

I looked at him even more confused which i guess made it worse " like i said i fought him for you, and im angry because i have or at this point maybe even had a release date and i still did it" he said

It all came crashing down on me at once and i realised i didn't have a right to be upset just sorry that i got mad.

I sighed sitting down on one of the bunks staring down at the ground " im sorry, I was happy you stood up for me or whatever but it wasn't a big deal." i said

I felt him sit down on the bed next to me " its fine, im sure it'll resolve itself but if it doesn't.. its no so bad here now anyway" he said

I looked up at him almost wanting to laugh " what could be so good about being here" i asked

And at that Anthony smiled, a small smile something most people wouldn't have noticed " you" he said bluntly

For a second i thought it had suddenly started getting hot in the cell, but soon i realised it was probably just the panic attack i was about to have.

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