A New Life Together

Adoption Agencies

Dimitri POV

"Rose, I really don’t understand why you are so angry with me," I said exasperatedly. Rose held up the booklets that she had found inside one of my books and she waved them in my face.

"This! You don’t understand why I’m angry about this?" she asked. I glanced at the booklets and back up at her.

"Rose-" I said softly. Rose slammed her hands down on the counter and glared at me.

"No," she said. She slammed the leaflets into the bin and turned away from me. I ground my teeth together.

"No? No? Are you serious right now Rose? What…we aren’t even going to have a discussion about this?" I asked. Rose turned round and glared at me.

"No. This isn’t up for discussion Dimitri," she hissed. I sucked my top lip between my teeth and looked up to glare at her.

"So you aren’t even going to consider adopting with me?" I asked. Rose spun round to face me and she took a step forward.

"I never wanted kids Dimitri," she hissed.

"No. You said you never thought about it because it wasn’t an option. I have always wanted kids. You know that. Rose, can we at least talk about it?" I asked. Rose ran her tongue over her teeth and looked up at me.

"I guess you should have really thought about it before you picked me over Tasha huh?" she snapped. I took a stepped back and furrowed my eyebrows, her words literally caused an ache in my heart. I focused my eyes on Rose’s and tried to ignore the tears that I could feel building behind my eyes.

"Yeah, silly me. Imagine me choosing to spend the rest of my life with the woman I love," I muttered. I grabbed my pamphlets from the top of the bin and looked at the ceiling.

"The fact that you won’t even think about this really hurts me Rose," I murmured, my throat constricting. I felt the tears splash onto my cheeks and I blinked. Rose didn’t respond and I shook my head. I grabbed my keys from the table and Rose suddenly straightened up.

"Where are you going?" she asked. I glanced back at her and shook my head.

"I can’t be around you right now Rose. I just can’t," I said. I could see the hurt on her face and it sent another jolt of pain into my chest. All I wanted to do was to wrap her in my arms and apologise but I couldn’t. She knew how much this meant to me. She knew exactly how much I wanted this and yet she still wouldn’t discuss it with me.

"Dimitri," Rose said. I glanced down at the booklets in my hands and thought about the kids in the pictures. So many children who had lost their family. Children who didn’t know how much some people would give to have them in their life. I closed my eyes again and blinked away the tears, forcing myself to step out of the house.

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It took me hours to work up the courage to go back home and by the time I got there, the lights were all out. I took a deep breath and stepped out of the car. I made my way up the stairs and unlocked the door, stepping into the house. I locked the door behind me and rested my head against the doorframe. I could do this. This was Rose. We had already been through so much. Arguing over adoption wouldn’t come between us. I pushed my hair out of my eyes and headed up the stairs, pausing at the door and to watch Rose fidget in her sleep. I glanced behind me at our spare room and tried to rid the nursery plans which were swirling in my mind. I heard Rose let out a sob in her sleep and I instantly forced the thought of the nursery out of my mind and made my way over to her. I ran my hand through her hair, pushing it off her forehead.

"Shhh, Roza everything is okay," I soothed, running my thumb over her eyebrow. Rose’s eyes fluttered open and she let out another sob. She sat up and furrowed her eyebrows.