Little Hope For Love

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After a while staying at home i went out and buy some flowers before going to the cemetery.

Goshh when will my tears stop flowing down, every smile i have at the end of the night it will change in to tears.

I sat down beside Noah's grave my boyfriend that passed away.

"Hey love im here again because i still can't accept it, i know you will hate me from crying each time i visit you. It's just that it's so hard to move on and be happy again, when no one doesn't know how you really feel"

"Love i met this guy i know you will be happy because i met a new friend again not just me and Hyukha, his name is Choi Beomgyu love he always make me smile and he even start to make effort to just make me smile, he might thought that i didn't notice it but i did"

"Love you know the both of you has a one similarity he also have the habit of skin ship, love he made me happy like how you always did to me he even always cook for me. Love it's just that i felt really guilty about it"

"Because i started to love him too while im still hurting with you, love i know you want me to be happy but i still can't, i still can't let go of you i have the feeling i can feel his love that he giving, but i can't love him this time the guilt just keep on growing"

"I love you too much that untill know i still can't let go even tho there's a man, who's doing effort and trying to make me happy again feel love again and to fall in love again"

"I don't want to love Beomgyu while I'm incomplete and broken, because we will just get hurt at the end"

I can't even bear to stop my tears from falling down it just make it more worst, I don't want Beomgyu to love me too much while i am here crying on a person who die. A person that is so special to me, i know Beomgyu like me he show it you will notice it.

It only toke 24 hours i know i have a feelings for him and I don't want it to grow, i know i will be hurt and mostly him the guilt will just grow if i continue.

I'm too broken to love him he doesn't deserve a person like me who still can't let go, a person who still have a guilt growing in side because of the pass.

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It's already pass dinner time i text Taehyun that i will be going home late, so he won't end up cooking a dinner for him he just went a dinner time with his brother Yeonjun. He even text Taehyun if he ever want food from the restaurant, but Taehyun just leave him on read he really felt something is off.

"Beom are you okay? You been zoning out your still didn't move your meal" My brother ask who is eating dinner with me.

"Nothing i just felt off" I answer.

"Why tho?" Yeonjun ask me.

"I been texting Taehyun he just left me on read, before i went work were okay he even wave goodbye to me"

"Just don't think to much he might be just busy doing something at home, eat already so you could go home early" He to lessen my worries.

After a time finishing my dinner then i wave goodbye to my brother after all he just waiting for his fiance Soobin hyung to come and pick him up, they just god engaged two days ago not surprised after all they been together almost 5 years already.

I drove home with a bit of worries i have a big gut feeling that something is really off.

"I'm home" I said but no one greet me no smiling Taehyun that greet me.

I remove my shoes and then went in side i untied my tie and look around Taehyun is not in his usual spot on the living room. Then i went on the kitchen it's clean and it's seem like it's not been move, i look at the dining room no sign of Taehyun.

I went upstairs and knock on his room.

"Hub are you there?" I ask while knocking.

"Hub??" I ask again.

"What" He answered not bothering to open the door i know his holding on the door knob because it click when i try to open it.

"Is there something wrong? Why are hiding at your room when you usually sit with me at the living room?" I said and i just a sigh came from him.

"I just don't feel good Beomgyu" He answer.

"Hub come on i know something wrong, but if you really don't want to toke about it, it's okay to me i know it might be hard for you i been there before but stay strong okay" I said at least he know there is someone there for him.

"Did you eat dinner?" I ask to change the subject.

"I don't feel eating Beom, i just want to be alone" He answer.

"Okay i will give you space but eat whenever your hungry, if you want me to cook food for you just tell me okay i will be at my room" I said.

"I will" He mumble.

After that i wait a minute from out side of his room just to make sure.

Hello hello i hope you guys enjoy this chapter even tho it's kinda sad but yeahh i hope you like the update. If ever you guys feel empty it's okay to feel things like this because your a human but don't ever let it grow remember theirs people around you that love you, you guys might not notice it but there is. Just don't give up and stay strong okay my beautiful bunbun i love you guys so much. Soo Yeahh author Groovie is out peace hate is not allow here, stay safe, stay happy, stay healthy, and don't forget to stay clown. Author Groovie is always here for you guys you can talk to me if ever you feel empty or doesn't feel okay, I'm here to listen and comfort you guys.