Compromising Pain.

Standing still

You know on your birthday every year you say I feel the same, it's just another year of me or that you can see the change but not feel it well that's because you are always with you even in the moment that you make yourself forget when you are gunning for the door or waiting for that knife,

you are with you, so you're never really alone, you have to love yourself before you can love someone else and I don't mean the way you love a friend or a family member the love that leaves those feelings no one else can replace the love that stops time.. well now you know the reason but life takes bits of you every year and leaves them...on someone's door step, on someone's lips or turned them into dust...just make sure you don't trip.. swapping them out again Turing them twisting them to the point it breaks..better or to worse this is life's curse and you have to live with your mistakes...live with your heart breaks... The pain that makes you want to jump and the hope that makes you feel consumed because you know one day you will bloom that tiny voice inside your head will be there until you are very dead so make that step and make that stand because life's timer is like quick sand the more you struggle the fast you'll go but the people around us is what makes us glow they will throw a rope so hold on tight they will help you regain that once sought flight so spread your wings and thank the fear hold onto to it like its your last gear
for one moment things are bad and I know this can make you sad you hide it behind that mask so you don't become that gloomy outcast.. Today is good today is bad.. All the same in every way tomorrow is a new day just keep telling yourself it's going to be ok..
the people that make you happy will spark an immortal glow so keep to them if you know they know..