I am but normal

Chapter one: The Beginning

"Y/N!" my mom, m/n, wakes me up by clapping. "ughhhhhhh"

Mom walks through the door and starts clapping louder. "Y/N ! Wake up. You are not going to be late to school again. You won't get anywhere in life if you don't go to school."

I look at mom, she always does this. Just because I don't go to school for a couple of days doesn't mean I won't be anything in life. "okay. just leave so I can get change." "What do you mean y/n? I've already seen everything." "Please just leave."

Mom walks out the door and I lock the door behind me. Why is she always weird like that.

Well, I guess I'm out of bed now. I barely have anything to wear. It's only junior year. All I do are the standardize tests which I can find the answers on quizlet.

I decide on a simple baggy white shirt and some sweatpants. I look at myself in the mirror. "This is just disappointing." I hate how I look. Maybe I should just change. Maybe I shouldn't come to school.

I walk out the door and catch the bus. I check my phone for messages from friends I don't have. It's saddening when all I do is look at people's fun and interesting lives on Instagram and Snapchat.

I look at the bus and I miss the place I have to pull. I pull the mechanism at the next stop and I walk to the area I'm supposed to be. The light is red. "If somebody is looking out for me, please turn this light green."

I wait five seconds and snap.
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Nothing happened and now I just look stupid. The next minute I think about how dumb I must have looked to other people and see that no cars are coming. It may be red, but I gotta get to school.

I run the light and i start walking again when I'm on the sidewalk. I reach my school in like 10 minutes.

I walk through the big doors and I sit down in my class. I decide to sleep for a bit. I mean I'm early.

I wake up and the class is over. I should really pay attention. I mean, I am failing this class. It just seems like I just can't stay awake in this class. I pick at my fingernails a bit to ease the thoughts and I go to my next class.

Mr. Reid's class may be one of my favorites, but I just don't feel here right now.

His voice fades out and I think about my life, that if maybe I changed or acted more energetic I would have (more) friends.

I should really try. It wouldn't hurt, well it would but it's no shame in trying.

A bell rings, signifying that it's lunchtime, the funnest time of the day. I get my items at my own pace, some people quickly getting their stuff and leaving, some people waiting for slower people like me to leave.

I go to the cafeteria and get whatever they're making. It's truly not that bad, but i can barely eat anything here.

I sit in my phone and watch some videos I didn't have the chance to at home.

Oh yeah, I said I would try to be more active. I look over at a random group of people, "hey! Can I sit with you guys?"
"Uh... sorry.. we actually have someone for these seats, we're just waiting for them to get here."

The person gives me a half smile and i smile and sit back into my seat. I put my head down and hold in tears. That was so embarrassing. Why did I even try? I go to sleep again, and I wake up to another bell.

I look over to the group I wanted to sit at, and none of their seats were full. If they didn't want me there, they could have just said that.
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A/N: for those who don't know (and ones I'll be using)
Y/n- your name
(Y)L/n- (your) last name
P/p- preferred pronouns
Y/s- your sexuality
Y/g- your gender
H/t- hair type
S/t- skin tone
H/l- hair length
Y/h - your height
H/c- hair color
C/n- crushes' name
C/l- crushes' last name
M/n- mom name
D/n - (deez nuts) dad's name
P/n- parent's name (for those ppl who don't have either or don't consider them family. You can also make up one if you want.)

(Besides y/n, everyone will have a predetermined look bc not everyone has a crush. And if that's the case for you,

C/N- Dia( short for dianna) (deeah)

THIS IS A XG STORY SO PLEAE TAKE IT W A GRAIN OF SALT.