The Bench

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[?? POV]
You know, the saying ''If life gives you lemons, you make lemonade.''? Well, to make lemonade, the key ingredient is lemons, of course. But, you also need water. A precious element of it. If we talk about real life, to have an ideal life (lemonade), you have to feel happy (lemons). But what about those people who can't feel happy? They can never reach happiness. They live in sadness, for the rest of their lives. I think it's really unfair, that, most of the time, those people are the ones who couldn't manage to find a way to make themselves happy, just for a little bit. Because those people, got the curse, of getting hurt so much, that they don't have the energy to be happy. It is my case. I, Lee Yongbok, never felt happy. I mean, I must've, but I don't remember that feeling. Most of the time, I have to act like everything is okay, to please and to not make people I care about, worry. Who hurt me that much, you may ask? This one person, who broke his promise. Something, I will never forget about. I know he was broken, but so was I. And he knew, he knew I was hurting as much has him. There's just one thing wrong. He never hurted me. He broke his promise once, but never was mean, or hurtful to me with his words. It was just the people he was hanging out with. His ''Friends''. But now, I think he changed his friends, and realized that they hurt him and other innocent people way too much. But his friends, didn't stop bothering me. They continued to sexually harass me and bully me. I knew people only liked me for my body, but his friends are way more scary then anyone I had to encounter. My siblings, worried a lot about me. And still do. It's probably because I treat myself so badly. They only want me to feel happy and to love myself, but theoretically speaking, it will never happen. Since my dad died, I have stopped smilling. Because, that's when everything fell apart. That's when I learned that my father wasn't the one I thought he was. He wasn't my amazing father, that loved his family very much. But that's for another time. Anyways, I plug in my earbuds and insert them through the circular hole of my cellphone, specially made for headphones. I put on my favourite playlist, the one I always listen too. I skip songs till I arrive to the one. The one song that makes me escape from reality. The song {Where's my love-syml} was playing and making me feel like I was in heaven. Like I was in another dimention. That people could finally understand me. But when I oppened my eyes there was just nothing around me. No one. The park, was alone by itself. And I was here to make it feel less lonely. And I realized that, the only thing that could make me feel loved, was a park. The park I grew up most of my life in. The park before eveything fell apart. The only thing I know couldn't betray me. I looked up to see rain falling from the light grey clouds. To me, rain, is the prettiest weather. Because, it feels like, the world can finally cry about every single violent and sad thing, that happens to it. And it can finally show, that it needs a break from all this madness. I felt something tingle my leg, and I looked down to see a small and young stray cat. It was common to see some in this district, since people would often leave their door oppened. I bent down to get to the small cat's height. It was so pretty, but looked so lost. I saw that he was mistreated by his owner, there was scars of a knife on his eye. A little tear of blood dropped on my hand, from it's damaged left eye. I took a tissue out of my pocket and tried to cover his eye, so it wouldn't bleed again. It seemed to like having company, because whenever I tried to move, it would follow me. I couldn't leave this poor cat alone, because I know what it feels like to be lonely. I didn't care if I arrived late for dinner, I only cared about the small kitten positioned comfortably in my arms.

''Looks like I am going to name you...Sakura!'' I said while smilling at the cat. I finally had someone, that could understand me. I walked back home to make sure Sakura wasn't gonna get cold. I took a break from walking, to take off my coat and give it to Sakura. I didn't mind getting wet, I would rather save this cat instead of me. {Where's my love} finised playing and the song I hoped would't play, played. It was {The Night We Met-Lord Huron} and this song, always breaks me down in piece. Because I think of the day I met this angel, sitting on the same brown bench I was sitting on half-an hour before. God, I wish he didn't move. I wish I could still see him every sunday, sitting on this bench, while plotting a cigarette in his mouth. He was maybe a bad boy, and a bad influence, like my brother says, but I just liked how he would see life. I would come every single sunday, to listen to his stories, and to stare at him, because he was the prettiest person alive, in my opinion. We didn't have any problems with each other. Even tho ours lives were different, we had one thing in common. Being broken. He was always getting yelled at by his parents, because he had bad grades and stuff like that. But he was mostly broken because of his best friend. He lost him, whilst they were both at a party, drunk of course. He was knocked out solid, and he didn't see his best friend getting in his car, driving away. He was high, and really drunk. He told me that he always blamed himself for his friend's death. I told him many times he shouldn't, but he would never listen. One day, the last day I saw him, we got into a big fight. We both were sitting on the brown bench, waiting for one another to talk. We both had devastating things to say. He wanted to tell me that he had to move. And I wanted to tell him that I had to finally go away, from this cruel world. I didn't have time to tell him. I was so heartbroken and sad that he didn't keep his promise, that I forgot what I wanted to tell him.

Flashback a year ago

3rd person pov

''Yongbok-ah, I have something to tell you..'' Hyunjin said, to break the awkward but sad silence between them. ''It will hurt you tho...'' The older said while grabbing the younger's hand, and getting closer to him to hold him, incase he needed to cry.

''I have something to say too...It will also hurt you alot...'' Yongbok said while sobbing a little bit, and giving a sad eye contact to his hyung. ''But, you can go first.'' The younger blonde-haired boy said while grabbing the other one's hand back.

''I have to move.'' Hyunjin said with a straight face, but his heart was breaking into a million pieces. He wanted to look strong for Yongbok, even tho, his Yongbok-ah, already saw him cry a lot of times. The younger was shocked, but looked at Hyunjin with his teary eyes. That's when Hyunjin started dropping a couple of tears from his eyes. It killed him to see his precious angel crying. It hurted him even more to know that, the reason his beautiful angel was crying was because of him.

''W-What about t-the promise...?'' Yongbok finally manged to say, leaving Hyunjin even more devastated then he was before.

''I forgot about it...'' Hyunjin said looking down, because he knew Yongbok-ah, didn't deserve any of this.

''What do you mean you forgot!? We made this promise the first day we met each other! I can't believe you have to go and now you don't keep your promise! I'm so disapointed by you Hyunjin! I wish I never even loved you!''Yongbok said out of madness.

''You love me...?'' Hyunjin asked, tear-eyed, but still shocked by how Yongbok was mad.

''How could I not Hyunjin! Look at you! You are just so pretty! So nice, so kind, so perfect! Just everything I ever wished for! You are the only one that can understand me! The only one...Why does it hurt so much to love you, Hyunjin! Tell me...Please...Tell me Hyunjin...''

''Yongbok-ah, I love you too so damm much! I wished I could stay longer but I have to go...Or else my parents will be mad...''

''No! You can't go! You can't!'' Yongbok said while grabbing Hyunjin's arm begging for him to not go. Hyunjin turned around and embraced his beautiful human being in a warm hug, while drawing circles on his back. Yongbok hugged him back, so hard that it even hurted him to press. Hyunjin then let go of Yongbok and grabbed his hands.

''Yongbok, I need to ask you to do one single thing for me, please?''

''Yeah sure, I'll do anything...''

''Never forget me okay?'' Hyunjin said right after giving Yongbok a kiss on his lips.

''I promise...But Hyunjin?'' Yongbok said while still sobbing.

''Yeah? What's up my love..?''

''I hope this isn't the last time I'll see you...Make sure to come back here again...Okay..?''

''I promise, I'll try. But now, I really have to go Yongbok-ah. I love you so much, and you, are way too pure for this world. Never doubt yourself, never think you are not good enough, because that isn't true. I love you, and I'll miss you my little Yongbok.'' Hyunjin said before leaving his angel alone, in the sad park.

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I hope u guys enjoyed this small one shot ! Take care <3
— Noah !
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