Connect [SunSun]

Chapter 11

~Sunoo, Sunghoon ~

„I'm so glad that your are okay... you really scared everyone with that" „I'm sorry Hyungie I didn't mean to make all of you worry about me." He took his sad eyes from Sunghoon and finally made way for Sunghoon to come in „.. you came all the way here so at least come inside. Riki and Yeonjun Hyung are still here but they are sleeping so we have to be quiet or else we are waking them up" „uh.. yeah"
It's awkward. Is the first thing that came into Sunoos mind, than he let Sunghoon enter his small but really comfy flat. „Eh,.. do you maybe want something to eat? I can cook you something if you want?". If it wouldn't be so quiet in here, Sunghoon would have probably not even heard him ask anything. „no thanks Sunoo. You shouldn't do anything at all right now you are still to weak for it now." This whole sentence made Sunoo sick so fucking Sick. It wasn't the first time he heard those words and it made him so angry even though he knows Sunghoon just wants to help him but he just can't stop the feelings that are starting to boil up. „I'm so tired to hear this every time! I'm not weak stop treating me like I'm a child! I hate it! I hate to hear every time that I shouldn't do this or that because I'm weak! I'm not weak! It was my first really concerning panic attack after 4 years stop saying I'm weak than I'm not!"
He was lost at words. Not only was that first outburst he saw of Sunoo but it was also his first time he saw Sunoo getting angry at his own friends. „I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that... I'm just worried." before Sunoo can even think about a comeback he heard a yawn coming from his bed. Looks like it that his little outburst caused to wake up Riki and yeonjun „what's with the tension in here.." Riki asked between his yawning. „It's nothing to worry about Riki.. I just got a little overwhelmed so don't worry.." „Sunoo..." „shut up.." he grumbled while glaring at Sunghoon. „I guess we should go so what ever happened between you guys can be fixed..." yeonjun grabbed his and Rikis stuff while walking towards the exit with an still tired Riki right behind him. „don't talk to us until you don't make up.." and than they were gone.
„Sunoo are you mad now..." Sunghoon knows that it was a dumb question but he can't think straight right now if Sunoo will stay mad at him. His heart needs him even if Sunghoon still doesn't really know in what way his heart wants Sunoo. „No.. I'm not mad at you... it's More I'm angry that everyone just call me weak... it's already enough that my mom thinks that I can't do anything without her and it was rally hard to change her mind on letting me go to South Korea than she wanted me to stay with her in America... I'm sorry that I took all my anger, that was deep inside me, out on you.." again Sunghoon could see his sad eyes looking at him „don't worry about it Sunoo-ah.. I'm just glad you aren't mad at me.. I already were thinking about how to make it up to you..." letting out a little laugh Sunoo snuggled up to Sunghoon without even noticing it. Maybe Sunoo wasn't still sure that he was 100 percent Sunoo and not... not that boy he sees in his dreams.
On the other end Sunghoon really didn't mind it that Sunoo was snuggling to him, coming to conclusion that Sunoo just needs this little contact he can to seek comfort threw it.

„Do you really have to leave..." jungwon asked with a pout on his lips and an blanket spread around him, while he was watching Jay grabbing all his stuff (no they didn't have s.. they were just cuddling in boxershorts that's it!) „woonie-ah we already talked about it many times. I can't be all day here or else my father will get suspicious and will do everything to find out where I always am. And you know what will happen to you if he finds out. On top of that I have a meeting with Lia. If I'm not there I will get in trouble with my father." hearing that girls name makes jungwon feel many type of things. „Than go now before I will get even sadder.." Jungwon didn't even looked at him anymore before he was hiding inside his blanket trying to hold his rage inside. It doesn't matter how many times jungwon told Jay that he doesn't feel comfortable that Jay is meeting Lia but he always told him that he has to but jungwon knows better. Lia wasn't some business that could get him in trouble with his father especially because she has no „values" in jay fathers business that could help him. „
Jay walked up the door not walking out until he heard jungwons little voice out of the blanket „bye jay hyung I love you.." he was hoping to get an I love you back but of course it wouldn't happen and Jay just walked out of the room with just a bye. „Do you even really love me..." and the first tear started to fall.