I can't do this! The pain is unbearable, like there's something inside me trying to tear its way out. I run through the crowded streets of New York, knocking people over as I go.
"hey watch it ass-hole!" I hear a man scream at me as I rush past him, knocking him to the cold, wet floor.
I barely notice it's raining as the pain gets worse, I have to get out of the street, I have to control this, I can't let that monster out again, not after last time, I can still here the screams. I make my way further up the street and into an alley, just as I make it out of sight my legs give way, I go crashing to the floor and into the side of a dumpster. Still dazed I sit up and close my eyes, I try to focus on my breathing, to clam myself down but my heart is racing, so loud in my head, I feel like it mite bust out with every beat as it gets louder and louder, but I gain control, my breathing calms and my heart slowly returns to its normal pace, I just need a few minuets to let this pass. Just as the pain begins to fade I hear her.
"You're pathetic" she says as she stands over me.
The pain flairs up again, she definitely knows me as she calls me by name, "poor john, dose it hurt?"
again the pain flairs,
"Get away from me you crazy bitch!" I yell, trying to get her to leave me alone.
She shouldn't be here, it's going to get out of me and tear her apart, just like the last time, so much blood.
She crouches down to meet my gaze.
"why do you fight it?" she asks, "what do you think you can change? This is what you are!"
confused by pretty much everything she just said I ask "what?"
"Fool" she says, grabbing me by my throat.
She looks me in the eyes, I notice she lifted me off the floor, she must be half my size but she's lifted me off the damn floor,
"I will get what I want she says as she launches me across the ally and through the window of an empty warehouse.
It must have been a meatpacking factory at some point, I can smell the blood, it fills my nose as I let out a feral growl, I'm losing control,
"why?" I ask her, totally bewildered by her ferocity. she laughs at me as she climbs through the factory window. "What are you?" I ask her, now terrified as she slowly walks towards me grinning all the time.
"We are the same" she confuses me more,
"we are what? What are you talking about you psycho bitch?"
"Show it to me" she screams at me lifting me off the floor again.
I can't fight it any more, cant hold it in, the monster is pushing at the corners of my mind clawing through my consciousness and I cant refuse it anymore. she throws me across the room and I slide across the floor, a laugh erupts from my chest, an evil laugh that is not my own and I say
"you should be running."
"Show me what you hide!" she says, laughing all the time.
As the pain flares again, I snap.
"fine!" I say as I remove my jacket, leaving it on the ground beside me.
Then it happens, I've been holding it in so long it almost explodes out of me, it happens so fast I barely feel it, first my skin as it turns a dark shade of grey, then my body changes, my face, hands, legs, chest, bones cracking and snapping then settling in there newly formed positions. Then my fur comes quick as it flows over me like a wave. then its over, my mind is my own but the wolf is in control, I feel a rumble in my chest as he lets out a roar showing his dominance over me.
She grins her devilish grin and says,
"Calm down pooch"
she's quite clearly crazy, I think to myself, I try to get her to run but my voice is mute, the wolf wont let me take control, he's in charge now. Before I know what he's doing he's lunged at her, just missing her as she quickly steps aside. Again I feel my chest rumble as he growls at her. She smiles at me and says,
"Be a good doggy and sit while I change my outfit."
I feel him lunge at her again, but she just catches him mid air, her hands wrapped tightly around his throat she growls at him and says,
"I said sit" with a flick of her wrist she sends him, and me flying across the room and into a wall, we hit the floor so hard I feel it shake my consciousness.
Dazed he sits there staring at the overly powerful woman, then it hits me, as I remember what she said,
"we are the same!" she's like me, a monster.
She turns to me, removing her jacket and showing me her bare chest, and kicks off her high heel's, then she changes, but its not like it was for me, she is ready for it, not resisting, its so fluid, so free and so fast, if I were to blink I would miss it.
Before I know it this white haired woman has become a white haired wolf. The monster in me doesn't like this, he sees her as nothing more than a threat, a challenge of his power, once again he lunges at her, catching her off guard, pinning her face down to the floor, she throws her elbow into his jaw and he staggers backwards, reeling from the pain, she pounces on him, snapping her jaws, reaching for his throat, he hits her hard, almost breaking her jaw, she tries to fight but the wolf is too strong. He grabs her head and slams it into the floor several times, each time using more force, she goes limp and he lets out a tremendous roar, looking down at her seemingly unconscious body he leans down to breath in her scent. Her eyes open but she doesn't move, he breaths her in, she smells so sweet, as he stands there looking at her she turns back, returning to her beautiful human form. I feel my chest rumble again as he growls at her, she leans her head back to bear her throat, for a second I catch a glimpse of the wolf's mind, of what he wants to do to her, to tear out her throat and rip her soft body apart for pleasure, using all my will I pull at him and cry out, I hear screaming and think I'm too late, seconds pass before I realize its me screaming, I've backed up against the wall away from her, I'm in control, the wolf has give up, I look at my reflection in the window next to me, I'm still the wolf, his body but my mind, a warm shiver runs through me and I'm me again.
I turn to the woman who is still half naked.
"How?" I ask her, totally confused by what has just occurred.
"Its about how much you want it, I've been watching you for months, I knew you wouldn't let the wolf kill me, not when I can answer all of your questions about who you are" she giggles at me as I look at her beautiful body, realizing what I'm doing I turn from her blushing.
She puts her coat back on a lets me know its OK to face her again, I put my jacket back on and walk towards her smiling.
"How did you know?"
She takes my hand in hers and kisses me, her lips are soft, and her tongue is just as tender, she tastes like cherries.
"come with me and I will show you the world as you have never seen it. I will take you to our people, you will finally be free. The answers you seek are with me, I promise I will never leave your side."
She leads me to the door of the warehouse, down the alley, back into the street, the sun has risen and the street is hectic with people, all completely unaware of what else hides in their world, beneath the darkness, under the skin.
She looks at me and smiles
"Come on, lets go home" I look at this woman and know I'm going to be OK, the wolf has gone and I' m more powerful than ever, I'm finally free.
