"Anak huwag ka ng umiyak, huwag kang mag-alala gagawin ni yaya ang lahat para sayo." Kahit anong pag-alo sakin ni Yaya Fely ay hindi nababawasan ang halo halong emosyon na nararamdaman ko. Do I deserve this life? do I deserve to live when I made peoples life miserable? Im so tired, tired of everything that's going on. It's been months but I still can't forget everything. I have so many people around me but I feel so miserable. I got no reason to live, infact I don't want to live.
"Honey listen to me, everything will be fine. Trust me okay? I will make sure that you'll get over this." and its not a lie. I know my aunt can do everything. But the memories and trauma it caused me will forever be with me. They love me that much that they can do everything for me but me? I got no love for myself anymore.
"The lawyer will be here tomorrow and we will fix everything and leave no traces. Stop crying and worrying about things okay? For the nth time Soleil I want you to always put in your mind that it is not your fault."
I stayed in my room and tried to sleep. But everytime I close my eyes all I can see is blood and a girl pulling the trigger of a gun. Inside my room was so quiet but in my mind there's so much noise. Tumayo ako at kumuha ng sleeping pills, It's been since I'm taking this just for me to sleep. I even prayed not to wake up anymore, I bet there's no difference in life and death. I'm not afraid to die, infact I'm much more afraid everytime I wake up. Trying to live a lifeless life. How can life be so unfair? Can't I just be happy forever? I just miss how happy I was. I was once a cheerful kid who only sees good things in everything, but now, after the tragedy, after pulling the trigger, I just cant feel anything right anymore.
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