Cigarette daydream

"Lets go get pissed"

WARNING: ABUSE

*FLASHBACK*

I woke up to screaming downstairs, although it was the second or maybe third day in a row, it wasn't the nicest thing to wake up to. Then I heard it. That silence. It was almost worse then the fighting itself.......I waited and still nothing. I knew at that point I had to see what was going on. I quickly ran downstairs to see my mam in tears and a bag........a big gear-bag "Mam? What's that for?" I said my voice trembling at this point. She quickly looked up at me, her mascara running down her face and puffy eyes. "I....I" she stuttered over and over "is he moving out mam? Is dad moving out?" I interrupted her quickly losing my patience, I'm not the most patient person. Never have been. Never will be. Mam looked at me with pity in her eyes. And at those words she said next my heart dropped.

"It's for you Lot......he doesn't want you here anymore. It's either you or him and I can't"-
"You can't what!?" I said tears streaming down my face at this point. "What?! You don't have the balls to say you want him gone and not me?! Or is that really how you feel? You want me gone just as much as he does!? Well that's fine with me.....I'll be gone by tonight and I'll hopefully never see ye two self-centred cunts ever again!" I grabbed my coat, threw on my shoes and slammed the door right in her fucking face.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

Thank god I happen to have my fags with me. I decided to light one as I walked out of the apartment building. I was wearing literal
Pyjama pants but everyone does that so it's just the norm here. I decided to go to Jade's house. We have been friends for years so she wouldn't mind if I showed up. Her fella Jamie lives there too, I'm not the biggest fan of him. Very short temper and honestly she can do much better but I'll keep that to myself. She didn't live to far, only three blocks down so I was there in a few minutes.

I put out my cigarette, went up the stairs and knocked on the door. "Who's there?! If it's Damien don't let him in I still have to pay him back!?" I heard Jamie shouting from behind the door which not very subtle if he didn't want the geezer to hear him (but it was Jamie so I didn't expect any less from the dope). "It's only me lads" I shouted cause once again I was losing my patience. "Lottie why didn't you....oh" she stopped mid sentence as she noticed the state I was in. Messy hair, pyjamas still on and the tear stains on my face. "Come in I'll make tea" she said as she brought me inside by the hand. I really appreciated having a friend like Jade, I never needed to say anything and she would know when I needed comforting.

"Are you gonna sit there and feel sorry for yourself or explain why you look like tha" Jamie said clearly not giving a shit that I was upset. "Jamie I swear to fucking god I'll fire the cup of tea at your head" I said losing my temper. Jade told Jamie to leave before I actually end up throwing the cup at him. "Fine but tell her to calm her shit" Jamie said as he was just about to leave. "Yeah whatever just go, and pick up milk when you're gone " Jade said trying to get him out as quickly as possible. Jamie left and Jade sat down beside me "So what happened" she said comfortingly. I explained what happened and she immediately said those words that I was just dying to hear.

"You can stay with us as long as you need to Lottie! Just as long as you and Jamie don't kill each other" she laughed trying to lighten the mood. "Yeah I won't I promise and thanks again" I said. "Yeah anytime. Oh and we are going out tonight. I don't care what you say. We are all going out, getting pissed and having a good time, you need it Lot" she said sternly
. "I literally have nothing to wear. And I need to go home and get clothes!" I said even though I knew she was gonna make me go no matter what. "We are literally the same size I can give you something to wear, and plus you have all day to do that and I'll come and help you" Jade explained. She always thought ahead. She was so calm and collected and that's why I loved her.

She grabbed her car keys and we drove to my parents house. I knocked on the door.......no response. I opened the door and there was no one home (thank god). I ran upstairs and packed my shit and left as soon as possible. Jade was waiting in her car, smoking as per usual. She got out and helped me with my bags.

"You really don't have a lot of clothes do you?" Jade said noticing all of my clothes fit into that one gear-bag. "Dad never let me get things for myself and plus my room is tiny I don't have alot of space" I said tearing up a bit. Even the thought of dad gave me ptsd I just hate him. "Well you won't need to worry about that with me Lot. The spare bedroom is big enough and you can get as much clothes as you need" Jade said noticing I was starting to get upset again.

We got back to her house and Jamie was sitting on the settee watching top gear. "Jamie will you help Lottie with her bag" Jade asked politely. But surprisingly he actually did take the bag off me and brought it to the room.

I unpacked my stuff and changed into a pair baggy jeans. They weren't baggy cause they were supposed to be stylish but it was because they were my dads. He just gave me shitty old clothes to wear but it was fine. I never wanted to complain about it. I walked into the living room and thanked Jade again. We all sat down and watched TV for a while, and then Jade said "Cmon.....up" she held out her hand for me but I was confused. "What are you on about?" I said furrowing my brows. She threw her eyes up to heaven and then I remembered.....we were going out tonight!

We went to her room and she picked out a few dresses for me. "I am not wearing that" I said as she showed me a light green coloured dress. "Look like snot man" I said laughing. "Yeah I know I'm trying to get rid of it I just wanted to see if you would have it" she said now laughing with me.

After a about thirty minutes we both were reading. Jade was wearing a dark blue mini dress with black heels, she looked amazing. The dress colour complimented her long black hair perfectly. I was wearing a red low cut mini dress with very similar heels. It was quite revealing but I didn't care.

"Wow Lottie....why cant I look like you" Jade said just staring at me in awe. "Fuck off Jade are you mad look at ya. You are stunning" and I wasn't just saying that cause we are friends.

After a good 10 minutes of us exchanging compliments, we grabbed our coats and handbags (and Jamie) and we were ready. "Let's go get pissed"