Claiming My King || Darkness Book #2 ✔️

Chapter 03 | Mya

Stacey's Pov

Six months later

"Muuuuum, it hurts, I can't" I cry out as I have half of my babygirl out of me..
"You're so close baby, just a little bit more and your babygirl will be out" she says soothingly and runs the flannel over my sweaty head.
"Push, Stacey!" the midwife calls out so I take deep breaths and push with all I've got.
"FUCKKK!" I scream as I feel the contration getting stronger then I feel instant relieve from the excruciating pain when she's finally out and I hear her crying after a few seconds. I've had a baby.. ohmygod!
My mum cuts her cord and she gets placed on to me and I cry. I have a baby.. With someone who doesn't care to be here while I give birth.
"Look at you're babygirl, sweetie" my mum says and I think of Liam instantly. I miss him so much right now. He'd of been here one hundred percent, by my side holding my hand through it. How did we get here? I'm sick and tired of asking this question..
"Congratulations sweetie" my mum says to me and kisses my forehead.
"I'm so proud of you hunny, shall I go tell Sian now?" she asks and I nod looking at my baby on my chest. The midwife suddenly takes her away and I start to panic.
"I'm just going to weigh her hun and do some measurements, don't worry" she says and I sigh out, nodding.
The doctor quickly stitch me up, but I don't feel shit as I lay here staring up at the ceiling. I really had Victor's baby. How the fuck do I do this now?
They finish up and I hear the door open and see Sian rushing towards me.
"I'm so happy for you babes, you're going to be amazing, I just know it and I'm always here" Sian says coming over to me and hugging me. I hug her back and begin to cry.
"I know babe. He's not worth your tears, you have your baby now" she tells me and I slowly nod feeling like a failure. I couldn't even get Victor to come to the birth of his daughter.
"Liam called me when you came in to see how you was. He wants me to call him when you've had her" she tells me and I sigh again. He said he was moving on..
"Let me call him" I say holding out my hand for her phone and she unlocks it and scrolls to the number hitting call, I put the phone to my ear preparing myself to hear his vice after four years. Don't fucking cry. I tell myself repeatedly. I can do this.
"Sian? Has she had the baby? Is she okay.. is the baby okay? Is Victor there? Talk to me damn it" he says down the phone in a rush and I can't help but smile.
"Hi baby" I say quietly down the phone and he catches his breath.
"It's so good to hear your voice. Please tell me you're oaky, and your baby is" he asks me and I can hear the concern in his voice. Sighing I answer him.
"I'm feeling like shit" I tell him honestly and he chuckles.
"Well congratulations beautiful, you will be an amazing mum. I'm so proud of you" he tells me sounding happy and I can't ruin this for him. I know he's about to ask about Victor and I don't want to lie but..
"Is Victor there for you, enjoying the moment of becoming a family" he asks and I feel the tears stream down my face.
"He's here.. but he had to pop out for some things I needed" I lie and I can't stop the tears flooding. I feel so fucking guilty lying to him but I need him to be happy and he sounds it. Sian rubs my leg soothingly and I wipe my eyes..
"I'm glad he is there for you, enjoy your life beautiful. I still love you Stacey Johnson and I always will" he says and I choke on my tears hearing him say it.
"I love you too baby, enjoy your life" with out me I thought and hang up. I can't do this again.

***

After finally convincing Sian I was okay, she left me along with my mum. I'm currently trying to feed my baby who I've decided to call Mya.
"Come on baby, feed for mummy" I tell her and she cries. Opening her mouth, I slide the teat in and she begins to suckle. Thank god.
Looking around my room I should be sharing with Victor yet he's nowhere to be found.. I can't wait to go back home with my baby. Just us.
Yawning, I wind Mya after she finishes her bottle and she falls asleep in my arms. Slowly putting her down in the little bed, I lay down and curl up staring at her. Why can't you be Liam's? He'll love you unconditionally and you'll love him the same. I sigh and begin to feel my tears falling again.
The nurses come around and check me and ask me questions about how I'm feeling within myself and as a new mum. Mya does everything she needs to do so I'm discharged and climb out of the bed. My mum appears again and looks me over.
"You ready to go, hunny" she asks and I nod to her.
"Yes please mum, I can't wait to get out of here" I tell her and she chuckles, getting my stuff together. I get dressed quickly and put a coat on Mya and put her into the car seat.
My mum picks her up and helps me walk out the room and into an awaiting elevator.
Riding down, I let my mind drift to how happy Liam sounded. Is he really that happy without me? Is he just gonna move on like he said. I don't want that.
Exiting the hospital, I put Mya into the car then strap the seat belt around her securely and just look at her. How did I make such an amazing thing. Smiling, I shut the door and make my way around the car and climb in beside her. My mum pulls off and I look out the window seeing Liam standing by, watching me.. smiling. Everything inside me wants to jump out and run to him but I know my mum wouldn't stop the car, so I offer him a smile back and try hold back my tear of seeing him again.. all the emotions that have built up since the last time. He blows me a kiss and waves goodbye to me. Is he finally letting me go.. forever?