I'll Live For You And Me {Iwaoi Story}

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Iwa was happily playing with Oikawa's hair, knowing it always helped Oikawa fall asleep. But at some point, his hand started to lose strength to do it. It felt weightless, and so did his other hand. 

A few seconds later, his whole body felt weightless. His breathing was failing but surprisingly, there was no pain in his chest. All he felt was Oikawa's head on his lap, and he smiled when he heard Oikawa's soft snores. What Iwa didn't realise was that it was the last sound he heard. 

His eyes started to close, and he stopped hearing Oikawa's snoring. He felt as if he was drifting away and he wasn't sure if he was falling asleep or dying. Iwa didn't seem to care though because it was peaceful. He was relaxed, and at peace and...ok. 

Iwa felt ok. After months of breathing problems, and heart pains and sleepless nights, Iwa felt ok. The last thought that passed through Iwa's mind before drifting of was how a star's light travels the universe, long after it dies. That's what he wants to be in this world. Someone whose light lingers on after he is gone. And this is how he dies; thinking of how he wishes to be remembered.

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Oikawa wakes up two hours later, in a different place to where he fell asleep. He was in the hospital waiting room, sitting on one of the chairs. He slowly sat up better and got up. He looked around, and saw Iwaizumi's mum standing outside Iwa's hospital room. He walked over to her, and as he got closer, he realised she was crying. 

"Hey, Misses Iwaizumi. Who moved me out here? I was sleeping with Iwa-chan inside his room." I said, and she jumped slightly. 

"Oh, h-hi dear. Uh, the nurse moved y-you out here." She said, her voice cracking multiple times. 

"Oh, right. Why? How's Iwa? I'm gonna check on him." I said, grabbing the door handle. 

Before I could open it, she grabbed my hand. I looked up at her, and she shook her head. More tears fell from her eyes, and I got the message. My eyes filled with tears, and they very quickly started to make their way down my face. 

"No...You're l-lying to m-me." I mumbled, in disbelief. "Iwa is s-still in t-there. He is w-waiting for me to go s-see him, I k-know he is." I said, crying more and more. 

"I'm sorry Tooru, he d-died while you where s-sleeping with h-him." She said, hugging me. 

We both broke down, hugging each other tightly. Iwa's mum was a strong, independent woman and Oikawa had never seen her so devastated. He tried his best to comfort her, but Mister Oikawa arrived soon later and Oikawa left them alone. Oikawa was sitting back on one of the hospital chairs, crying his eyes out. 

Iwa was gone. He died while sleeping with him. He shouldn't have gone to sleep...Iwa would still be here if he didn't.....

"Oikawa." A voice called out for him. 

Oikawa looked up, and it was Makki and Mattsukawa. Makki held his arms out, and Oikawa stood up. He hugged him, and Makki hugged back. He could hear Makki crying but it was barely visible over Oikawa's loud and heart breaking cries. 

"He's g-gone M-Makki. Gone..." Oikawa cried, his voice weak and broken. 

"I'ts gonna be ok Oikawa, he is better n-now. He is r-resting, he is at peace." Makki said, trying to comfort Oikawa a little. 

"Makki is right, he is in a peaceful place now. He wouldn't want to see you like this Oikawa. He would punch you playfully and tell you to pull yourself together." Mattsun said, and he wasn't lying. 

Oikawa knows Iwa didn't want Oikawa him to be so broken. He wanted Oikawa to be strong and go on with his life. But it's hard. Oikawa loves Iwa, always did and always will. 

"I know, but it h-hurts. It's not fair that he's gone." Oikawa cried. 

"Life isn't fair Oikawa, there is nothing we can do. But we have to be strong, for Iwa and for each other." Makki said, patting Oikawa's back. 

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Oikawa stayed at the hospital until a nurse gave him and Iwa's parents more information. According to her, he died as he fell asleep. The funeral was in 5 days, and the rest was the hospital bills which I promised to help Iwa's parents with. 

Oikawa was ready to leave the hospital, but the nurse that got along with Iwa the best stopped him. 

"Iwaizumi told me to give you this when he was gone. I'm sorry for your loss." She said, giving me a piece of paper. 

I nodded and left the hospital. It was 11pm, and Oikawa didn't feel like going home. Instead, he went to the park that him and Oikawa first started to play volleyball at. Walking into the park, memories flooded Oikawa's brain. He felt more tears form in his eyes, but he didn't let them escape his eyes. 

He sat on one of the swings, the one he usually sat on when he and Iwa came here. He breathed in deeply and then opened the piece of paper. 

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Dear Oikawa, 

When you read this, I'm going to be gone already, which feels weird to say but we knew this day would arrive. For the past month I've been thinking of what to write in this letter but when I wrote it last week, I still couldn't think of what to write. 

There is so much stuff I want to say, but I don't want you to cry like a baby and smudge the pen ink. I guess I can start by saying that it's gonna be ok. You're strong Tooru, I know you will get through this and be ok. Maybe not immediately, but at some point, you will think of me and think of our happy memories and not my death. 

I also want to tell you to not give up on your dreams. Even if we planned to do it all together, I can't do it with you. So you will do it for us both, and I will look over you. I'll cheer you on and pat your back to get you moving forward again. 

I'm running out of space, and I don't feel like asking for more paper, so I lastly want to say that I love you. I've never loved anyone like I love you. Don't worry, I know you love me too. You've told me plenty of times, and every time, it made me so, sooooo happy. 

I love you, and I'll look over you from the stars. Even more of a reason for you to love the night sky now. Also, if you ever feel lonely, just look up at the sky. I'll be looking at you, and I'll keep you company, forever. I'll keep you company during the night, a volleyball game and everything else. 

Always together, forever together. Love you shittykawa. Live for me and you in this life, so that in the next one, we can live together.

From, 

Iwa. 

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Oikawa was crying, but he made sure not to smudge the ink. He looked at the swing next to him, where Iwa would always sit, and smiled. Maybe Iwa was sitting there right now, watching him cry like a baby. Oikawa looked back at the letter and at a phrase that stuck out to him, "Live for me and you." He wiped his tears away and got up. He put himself back together and walked back home.

He will live for him and Iwa. He will win, and lose, succeed and fail, for him and Iwa. For the both of them.