The boy and the bridge. ~noahschnappXreader

Chapter 1: peace

Again please be aware this is a very sensitive book <33

I stood there. I didn't know what else to do. Everything inside of me was just screaming.. do it.. but i was frozen. Still. Silent. There was no cars driving past. I don't expect different, it was 3 in the morning. I continued looking down. Never blinking once. So much was going through my head but at the same time i felt nothing. Just emptiness. Come on y/n!! You've thought about doing this for months. Stop being a pussy and do it.! I was no longer in shock. I slowly raised my arms level to balance me and started raising my leg. Here we go. The end. The time where everything. Stops.

I wasn't looking down anymore. I was looking straight ahead of me. I was no longer scared. I started slowly leaning of the side closing my eyes as i go.

"HEY!" I hear someone shout from behind me. Great. I open my eyes and stand back up straight, turning my head towards them. It was a boy. No older than me. He was tall and had brown fluffy hair, and wore a blue jumper with some baggy-ish joggers.

"What are you doing?" He asks looking up at me slowly walking closer and closer.

"Go away!!" I say to him clearly pissed.

"Woah woah calm down I'm just interested" he replys with a defensive tone in his voice. If im being honest, he didn't seem phased at the fact i was stood on the edge of a bridge. He was quite chill

"Im baking cookies what the fuck does it look like im doing?" I say to him still pissed at his presence.

For a while he just stood there. Then he walked closer and rested his folded arms on the wall of the bridge. I looked down at him and at the same time he lifted his head up so that our eyes meet. His eyes where beautiful. We hesitate to break eye contact and i start to get slightly confused. Hes a difficult person to read. Normally you look into a persons eyes and you just know what there like. But him. He was different. He was the one to break the eye contact and did it with a sigh followed by slapping his hands down on the wall.

"Wanna see what i can do?" He asks me with a huge smile on his face. He rests his hands back on the wall and pushes himself up. He stands up straight and looks down into the water. He starts lifting his feet up and walking up and down the wall

"STOP" i scream at him but he ignores me and keeps pacing down the wall with slight chuckles as he steps along.

"I SAID STOP IT!!" He stops and looks at me. His smile slowly fading, but not going away. He holds his hand out and his smile reapers.

"Wanna do it together?" He asks me . I hold out my hand and they finally conect. He looks up at me and then out at the view in-front of us.

"Im Noah" He says with a flat tone in his voice, still looking out mesmerised by the sky and its dark shades.

"Y- y/n.." i say looking straight at him thinking he didnt realise. He turns his head to me and his cheeks turn a light shade of pink.
SHIT.

"Alright. Lets do this thing.!" He clenches my hand tighter and lifts one foot over the edge untill its hover over the water beneath us. I hesitate and continue staring at him.

Maybe this isnt a good idea..

"3..2...1..."

"NO!!" I yell pulling us both back. We fall of the wall and onto the path of the highway. Our hands still accompanied by one anothers. I pant and look over at him.

"Your fuking crazy!!" I say trying to catch the last of my breath. My heart going a million miles a second.

"What? Thats why your here right.? To end it all." He spills out with an angry tone.

"I- i-" i try and speak but i cant. Everything's happening so fast i dont know whats going on anymore.

"Your just another one of those kids that thinks that killing themselves is the only way to escape!!" His voice is so different now. Two seconds ago he was smiling and laughing about and now hes screaming all this at me. What the fuck is going on?

I finally build up the strength and managed to shout back at him. "Oh and your not!!"

"Excuse me!" He says shocked at the fact that i said that.

"Yeh exactly! Your here aswell! Oh what your just gonna tell me that you came here for a morning jog? Maybe to clear your head." He dosent reply back. He just stands there and stares at the ground beneath him.

"I- i dont know what im doing anymore.." he says. His voice is flat now, almost lifeless. He sighed and sat with his back slumped against the walk. I walk over and sit myself next to him. Hm. Ive never been on this side of the wall before. I take a deep sigh and work myself up to tell him..

"My mom..died last year.." he slowly turned his head and looks at me with sympathy. I can see him in the corner of my eye, but i dont look back. I just keep staring into the space infront of me.

"She was out one night. Late in the bar with her friends.. she told me that she would be back for 10, which she obviously wasnt. She went there a lot my mom.. mainly to escape my dad. But sometimes just to escape life. We all have out ways of escaping life."

"You mean the harsh reality?" He interrupts.
I scoff and continue talking.

"Leaving was my moms way. Beer was my dads...." I honestly can't believe im telling him all of this what is wrong with me!!

"Whats yours?" He asks me tilting his head. He still hasn't lost his grip, he's staring right at me but im not ready to look back yet. I hesitate and shake my head, looking down at my feet.

"Running away... sometimes things at home gets.. bad. I start feeling alone.. and running away is just-"

"Your only solution..?" Wait! How did he-

"How did you know that?" I ask him finally connecting my eyes to his.

"I guess.. i guess you and me aren't total opposites huh?" He replys with a slight chuckle

I break the eye contact and look back in front of me. I close my eyes and reach out for his hand

"God! In this day and age nobody's opposite. Where all just. Sad lonely kids wanting the attention of somebody who we feel safe with. Someone who we can trust with all of our stupid bullshit."

"Yeh.. i guess so" he finally takes his eyes off me and looks out into the same place i am. This is.. nice. I mean sure im sat on the side of a highway with someone i met 10 minutes ago but something feels strange. I came here to end everything and im talking to some random boy about my problems. All these thoughts where going through my head and it wasnt bad. It was the first time in a long time that i knew what was going through my mind. There was a silence between me and noah but it wasnt an awkward silence, it was peaceful and comforting. Part of me just wanted to stay here next to him forever.