Do I get to say I was abused?
All you ever knew was being used
Maybe Im just as much to blame
Wasnt your fault you were in pain
Maybe I am the one who was the abuser
Maybe I'm the reason you called yourself a loser
Toxic Past
I just wish the toxic would pass
Maybe it's my bad that you loved me
Maybe I asked for it, going after someone with toxic masculinity
Maybe I deserve the flashbacks
And all the panic attacks
Maybe I am just weak
And it wasnt that bad of a leak
Could have fixed it with patches and bandaids
Could have just waited till the pain fades
I think I'm overreacting to your touch
Back then I didnt think it was too much
I'm just complaining about normal conflict
That's what I'll say is the verdict
You are just an innocent boy
I am just crying because I lost a toy
Maybe I deserved to be touched like that
Maybe I should be happy you didnt call me fat
I think it was my all my fault
That I didnt lock my heart in a vault
Written: July 5th, 2021
