I apologize to anybody who has tried to help me & I've turned down because my pride refuses it. I want to specially apologize to Evelyn, my girlfriend she has been here for me when no one else has & on some occasions I don't accept her help & I disappoint myself for not accepting what I need I have disappointed her. She saved my life if it wasn't for her I'd be buried in some cemetary. She stopped me from a bullet to the brain... I owe her my life. She is the most important person in my life. She is my motivation to get up every morning she is the reason I'm alive & sharing this story. I need her in my life more than ever. Evelyn if you're reading this I'm sorry I truly am I love you so much more than anything in this world you're my everything you give me life. Im sorry. As my time runs up I lack inspiration. My life hasn't been easy maybe yours hasn't either but keep on going. My mind still may race with suicidal thoughts but I have no plan to do anything anytime soon. Every writer needs a reader. I'm still twisted with this mental illness but I like it. I love the comfort of being sad maybe Kurt Cobain had the right idea "Stay Beautiful Die Young." The purpose of human life is to serve & to show compassion & the will to help each other. Maybe this story won't be as good as the last but hey I tried.
Evelyn you make me happy & shit.
Alright I'm done.
The end. For now
