the mistake|shinmono (on hold)

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《monomas pov》

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it wasn't supposed to end up like this. he couldn't control what other people did, he couldn't control what other people say. so why is he being punished for it?

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awase-
mono are you finally off of work?

me-
hell no lol, they just gave me more outfits.

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"fuck hes still not done." awase muttered, making tsuburaba groan. "they always give him the extra outfits because hes the better looking!" he complained crossing his arms. awase just shook his head and rolled his eyes.

"why not just tell him when hes done, he can just come to the group house." pony suggested making kendo agree. "are you sure we should do that Kendo?" Shinsou asked wearily. "I get that your worried for your boyfriend but everything's going to be fine, I'm sure of it." Kendo said soothingly.  "..okay."

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awase-

damn, okay when you get done every body will be at kendous house, just meet us there!

me-
alright.

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i sighed and locked my phone. working extra hours is good for the money and everything but why not rotate them instead of loading them all on me. by now I was ready to go home and cuddle my cat, but here I was, still putting on outfits. "monoma! youre on in five!" my advisor said through the door. "okay!" i yelled back, clipping on the last clock.

"okay i'm here, let's get this over with." i sighed out, now standing in front of the camera. "glad you could make it, let's start."

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"are you sure you don't need me to drop you off?" akari asked poking his head out the window. "yes i'm sure, have a nice day." i nervously said, giving him a small wave. akari stared at me for a while longer before finally raising up his window and driving off.

i breathed a sigh of relief, and made my way towards the group house. since those kids stole my car, the only vehicle i used to get to work today, i had to walk. the group place isn't that far but its still a pain.

passing by a shady alleyway, i couldn't shake off the feeling that someone was behind me, and when i finally heard the footsteps, it had already been to late.

i could feel the man grab ahold of my arm, with force and pull me back holding a knife to my throat. i was struggling against his grasp, managing to kick him in his shin, making him buckle. i ran for it the moment i felt his grip loosen but before i could even get a step away from him, i fell to the ground.

panicking was the only word i could describe myself as, misery began pouring into my head as i realized what was about to happen. he grabbed my arm harshly shoving me into a wall. i could feel the blood rush out of my head as i slowly fell unconscious.

the pain should have been subdued, i don't know why it wasn't, but it was painful. i hated every second of it. i felt disgusted and destroy as i let myself be knocked out.

then when i woke up, he was gone and all i could feel was pain. i stayed still for which seemed like hours but it just wouldn't go away. the feeling of being touched by that filthy man and feeling disgusting all over was to much for me.

i wanted to die at that very moment as ii felt something slide down my leg. it wasn't just physically heart breaking it was just as mentally heart breaking. i felt like i couldn't breath and that i was falling out the earth at that very moment.

then something told me to get out of there, even if it hurt, even if the pain was to much, I needed to get out of there. i didn't think twice as i tried pulling myself together and run, limp, or do something to make it back home.

i finally arrived at my door and pondered if i should knock or not. i mean everyone was bound to be here since it was already dark outside. i pulled myself together and knocked on the door, looking around a tad bit paranoid.

i still couldn't believe what happened and blamed it on my imagination as i stood waiting for the the door. "hell-" before she even got the words out she screamed almost fainting on the spot. "KOMORI?" i yelled out making everyone gather run to the door.

"MONOMA? OH GOD YOUR SAFE WE WERE LOOKING FOR YOU EVERYWHERE, I DIDNT THINK YOUD GET LOST, IM SO SORRY-" kendo rambled and cried on and i simply stopped her with a pause. "its fine, i just... took a wrong turn?" i lied.

"neito?" i looked past everyone to see shinsous red eyes widened in shock and relief. he ran past everyone and pulled me into a hug. i don't know what came over me, maybe a panic attack? i don't know, but its bothering me.

i pushed away shinsou, shaking with fear and regret. shinsous hurt eyes searched mine in confusion. not even a second had past before his eyes darkened. "neito, what happened."

i blanked out.

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