“Marcus, I’m sorry”, Yana said weakly while looking at Marcus that was currently looking at the beautiful scenery of Tagaytay.
Marcus suddenly looked at her.
“What for?”, he asked, questions cleared in his eyes.
Yana looked at her feet, tears starting to fell on her checks and with a heavy heart, she looked up at him again.
“I’m leaving”, she finally said, even though pain was too much, she still have the courage to say those words.
Marcus eyes filled with questions and pain but still take a deep breath and smiled at him, dimple on his left cheek became visible.
“Vacation? Where to?”, he asked, trying to calm himself, ignoring the idea that was running in his mind, even he knows that it is more than impossible.
“You knew what I mean. It’s not a vacation”, she said weakly, almost not heard, with tears falling and sadness and pain in her eyes
Marcus looked away, he can't look at her. His Adams apple moved and closed his eyes.
“When?”, he simply asked but it gives her too much nervous.
She doesn’t know how to explain everything to him. She’s scared that she might regret the decision she made days ago. But she can't stay either.
“I got accepted on the entertainment I’ve been dreaming. I want to pursue it and….”, she can’t finished her words because pain was swallowing her already.
She let herself to cry. Letting go the pain even it is very impossible.
She felt a pair of arms hugged her. Tightly hugging her like it was locking her in, reason that makes her cry even more.
He can’t bear the sight of her Yana crying just because of him. It is more painful to him, so he thought hugging her tightly can at least ease the pain and later on, kissed her hair, gently caressing her arms, trying to comfort her.
“Stop crying, hmmm?. It’s okay I understand. You don’t need to cry anymore. It’s okay for me, I will support you on your dream. Go ahead and pursue it. I’m just here, I’ll wait for you. Hush now, okay?”, he said, trying to calm her and stop her from crying.
But he knows himself too well, the comfort he’s giving wasn't for Yana but to himself, but instead, Yana moved and go away from his hug.
Marcus felt an unexplainable pain in his chest. It was like something stabbing his heart. It’s too painful, enough to take his breath.
Yana looked at him, straight to his eyes. Tears are still cleared and falling. He can see how clear the pain in her eyes making him felt the pain too. His heart starting to beat really fast, nervousness was swallowing him now.
Yana take a deep breath, she want to be with him but she can’t. It’s her dream over him.
“I’m breaking up you”, she said bravely, straight forward, no evidence of fear.
As she looked at Marcus, out of the blue, she can’t see any emotions on his eyes, brows were thick and lips was trembling. It makes her more scared and pained.
“I said I’m breaking up with you. I can’t stay in this relationship, Marcus”, she said
But Marcus was just standing in front of her, starring at her intently. It’s making her more in pain. She can’t take it anymore. Even it hurts her so much, she reached the lock of the necklace she’s wearing with her hands trembling.
