Walking through the party with with a bottle of whiskey alone cause Ann left me fucking alone like she always does. I try to find a room that is empty so I can just sit down for a minute. Finnaly a room with a big bed. I lay on the bed and rub my face. God I should have fucking come to this hell hole. I hear someone open the door
"Occupied" I say tired
"You look tired" a deep voice says
"No Im totally awake jumping around right now" I say sarcastically
Whoever this is lays next to me
"What are you doing alone in here?" he says
I turn around and see a boy with dirty blonde curls brown eyes
"Waintig for my friends but I don't think they're be here any time soon or ever" I say sarcastically
"Where did they go"he says courisoly
"Went to go hook up with theyre boy toys" I say
"Why didn't you come" he says
I turn around and were face to face
"Well I'm not exactly up to their standards" I say
"Well those must be some shitty standards cause youre beautiful" he says
"Shut up" I say laughing I turned back around laying in my back
"I'm serious" he says looking at me
I turn around and we both just look at each other and then he took my face and we started making out. This is my first time making out with someone In a while since babysitter Val is always near she gets to open her legs to any guy she wants but when I even talk to a guy she gives me al the bullshit. The guy gets on top of me and takes off his shirt. I hear the door open
"What the fuck y/n" I hear a voice and I know exactly what it is
She pushed the guy off me and he scoffs
"What do you want"I say annoyed
"I leave for an hour and some guy is on top of you? We're leaving now" she pulls my hand and we get our the car
"Do you know how dangerous that I's your clearly fucking drunk and you choose to do that? You probably don't even know his name do you?" she yells at me
"Your not my mom val and I don't but at least I didn't open my legs for him like you always do we just made out big deal" I say yelling back
She ignores me and drives me home
I got to my bathroom and take my razor blade. I can fucking deal with this shit anymore. Cut after cut deeper and deeper every time. Laying in my bed looking at the ceiling. Salty tear drops leaving my eyes voices in my head. "It's gonna get better" they always say but it doesn't. I close my eyes and go to sleep
In the lunch line
Holly: There's gonna be another party Friday are we going? She says
Paris: Duh but I don't have anything to wear. She says making a sad face
Y/n: you litterly have a closet the size of my room how do you not have anything to wear? I say sarcastically
Val: We'll we can go shopping today after school I'm not busy. She says
Holly: great Ill pick you guys up at 6:00. She says in a very happy tone
After school.
At the store
Holly: Ooh do you think this would look good on me.
Val: Totally it looks great.
Holly: Really?
Val: Yes really look they have different colors we will all wear a different one
Paris: Y/n they only have 3 colors and i think your too skinny for this dress I mean look at you you should eat more
Holly and Val just nod agreeing to her.
Y/n: That's uh fine I'm gonna go look somewhere else. I say
I go look at some other dresses. Maybe they're right, maybe I should eat more and gain some weight
I feel a head relax on my shoulder
"I think that would look good on you" a familiar voice says
I turn around and it's the boy from the party
"Hello Ted bundy thanks for scaring me really appreciate it" I say sarcastically
"It's vinnie" he says unfolding a shirt
"You know your gonna have to clean that up"I say
"So your not gonna tell me your name?" He says looking at me
"It's y/n " I look annoyed
"Again by yourself I keep finding you alone" he says smirking
"Wipe that smile of your face. My great friends say I'm too skinny for anything here so I'm pretending to look might not even go to that stupid fucking party" I say sarcastically
"You wanna get outta here" he asks me
"I can't leave" I say but he grabs my arm and we run to a park which looks like it's abandoned and we sit down by a tree out of breath and start laughing
"I'm kinda glad I'm outta there" I say laughing laying my head on his lap
"I had to I saw the amount of fucking stress in your face" he says
"I am never enough. Not for anyone I am a fucking disappointment to my family, not good enough for my friends, just so many standards that I had to live up to and failed" I say
"You are enough to me" he says and I sit up on him and we kiss. Those words meant so much just those 5 words from everyone and I would be the happiest girl in the world
"Why do you always wear sweaters" he points out
"What do you mean" I say
"I mean the two times I've seen you wore some time of covering
"No reason I just like to cover up" I say
He starts to take off my jacket and looks at my left arms. How did he know.
"You should stop doing that" he says
"It makes me feel better" I say
"You don't need to do that to make you feel better if you need to cut something cut me" he says looking at me
"Are you Sick?" I say laughing
"I would rather hurt for you than you hurting yourself "
He says giving a kiss to each of my scars
I give him a hug and I don't wanna let go. I felt comfortable with him. Sort of safe. Like I could do anything say anything I want to. Like I could be myself
He walks me back to my house
"I guess I'll see you someday" I say laughing
"Maybe or maybe I'll just travel the whole world and never see you again" he says laughing
"Bye" I say and he says in back and I watch him as he runs into nowhere like he has no care in the world
YOU ARE READING
Stangers
FanfictionY/n going through things but hiding them meets a boy who might understand her, but he takes his love for her too far
