Jealousy, Jealousy [TaeGyu/BeomHyun]

Why do I need to exist?

Taehyun's POV

♪And I can't let it go ♪

Why can't I stop hating Beomgyu? I hate myself for hating him. I know he did nothing wrong. He never did anything. I always try to hurt him, ruin his reputation, pull him down, why am I doing this? Please someone stop me!

The more I try to destroy him the more am I destroying.

♪Co-comparison is killin' me slowly ♪

The comparison between him and me is not coz of Yeonjun hyung or me having a crush on him.

It's all coz of my parents always comparing me with Beomgyu since we were kids.

I know I'm not perfect but, I try my best; in fact, do even better than what I can do.

Why do my parents stop comparing me with everything and everyone?

Especially, with Beomgyu.

♪I think I think too much ♪

Have started to hate that guy without any reason.

I won't deny the fact that my parents are too toxic. And Me? Just like them, I'm on the way to be toxic.

I even hurt Kai for no reason. I must treasure a friend like him. It's rare to find and I'm so lucky to have him.

Now as always I'm lying on my bathroom floor and crying silently.

Wish I didn't exist.