My Last Night

2

Joshua entered that grim store, the bell chiming to acknowledge his arrival. People with bored expressions loitered in front of the various stacks of necessities to pick up some for them. Sighing, Joshua did the same.
After about one hour of debating over the necessities, he made his way to the cashier. While standing in the long queue, he let his mind juggle with various thoughts.
He thought about how he wanted every night’s sleep to be his last one. He had no reason to live. That however doesn’t mean that he would just jump off the roof of his apartment or slash his wrist, heck no! That shit is painful! But sleeping forever isn’t. Yes, that’s something he yearned for. He didn’t wish for anything other than just sleeping forever. With no parents an–
“Next!”
His thoughts are interrupted by the cashier. He looked up and found himself staring at a set of baby blue eyes. He shook his head to get out of his trance and handed the items to the cashier.
The cashier scanned the barcodes of the items while Joshua stared at the beautiful sight in front of him in awe. The girl had midnight blue hair with a few strands of really dark wine red which are barely noticeable. Her fringes had grown out and didn't tangle over her tanned forehead. With long eyelashes, her baby blue eyes peer questioningly at the work in hand. She had a perfectly chiselled jaw and perfectly shaped teeth. Her body was curvy, not too curvy to not like but curvy enough to adore. And her nametag read “Sasha”.
Joshua felt warm in his chest and his stomach erupted in butterflies. The feeling was too unfamiliar for Joshua to comprehend. But Joshua knew what he wanted. He wanted Sasha, he wanted her for a night and claim her to be his. He wanted to make her feel loved. He wanted to be the reason for Sasha’s crinkles and upwardly curved lips. He wanted all of her to himself.
And then maybe, it would be my last night.
Sasha handed Joshua the bag of items and smiled at him. Joshua returned that smile. Weird! Because he never smiled back. With his brain a frazzled mess, he headed back to his apartment and started thinking hard about how to make Sasha his and his only. Even if that meant for one night.