Exhale

My beginning

Where do I start from here?
Its the year 2009 and I'm trapped with my step fathers family here on Guam. As a 13 year old I couldn't do much to save myself and my little brother, who was 12.
Where is mom?
Can she save us?, oh wait. . .
She did this to us. She left us here with these evil people. She gave up our fantasy life and moved to Saipan.
Since she left, I keep asking myself what did we do that we are suffering.
" you don't have to worry we got everything we need now. " she said. Its been months since Mom left and where is everything?
Gone! Gone with the wind and vanished forever.

Day and night I cry myself to sleep hoping that one day I can get out of here and start over again. Dad is around, but then he lost it all when Mom left. He became an alcoholic and gave up trying to make things right.
Its been months now and Mom still hasn't come back. Oh lord, please save us. We are staying with Dads sister and her kids are the worst. Frightening I meant.
"go back to where you came from! Your useless." Dads God-daughter Amy-Lynn told me.
I ran to Dad telling him what Amy-Lynn said to me. Dad picked up his can of beer, took a sip, and placed it on the picnic table.
Just one peak at Dads eyes made me sadden. "What do you want me to do? Because there isn't much I can do. This is not our home."
He cried as he spoke to me. I didn't want much really. I just wanted mom back home with us and for our life to be back to normal. Life isn't a piece of cake. Its a pile of dog shit when you don't play the right set of cards.