i always saw stairs in my dreams. and never knew if theyre going down or up. I was walking down the stairs and in a second i was walking up. Stairs changed under my feet and I couldnt do anything.
I was walking up and suddenly theres end. End of the stairs but the floors continue.
I felt fear. such a big fear. anxiety of not getting home I felt stuck and terrified.
There are so many dreams about stairs and elevators. Once, elevator took me on a floor that doesnt exist. It was huge. Huge empty room with looong cement balcony.
Im high now, looking at the stairs and I feel the fear I felt in those dreams. Im paranoid. Last night I smoked, looked out of my window and I felt like i was gonna fall. I didnt trust myself. Ive got so scared.
Weed is making me paranoid since ive stopped smoking. And the time goes so slow. Every minute feels like 5 minutes.
But i have warm hands.
