TW: self harm and starving mentions if you don't like that please don't read!
Billie POV I wake up to the light coming into the room I rub my eyes before picking up my phone and checking the time. I eventually sit up and look through Instagram for a bit to wake myself up. I have this feeling of excitement but I can't seem to remember why.
Until I get a notification that Jamie has posted on Instagram, I check it as a big smile comes across my face.
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Liked by finneas and 12,483,28 others jamieoconnell: arrived back in la after a great tour thanks everyone who got tickets 🤍 View 384 comments finneas: nice to have you back ashes.tcoe: it was the best show ever niallhoran: thanks for having me come along with you 😊 jamieoconnell: niallhoran, no worries I loved having you with me.
I hop out of bed with excitement and go straight to the bathroom and have a shower I then pick out an outfit for the day and run downstairs to the kitchen "morning Billie" Jamie says with a giggle. I run into her arms and hug her "JAMIE, your back".
She holds me close for a minute and then smiles and takes my hand "I missed you so much" Jamie say comfortingly. I notice her face changes as she looks down at the marks on my arm "oh Billie you promised me you wouldn't do that to yourself". I look down with guilt "I'm sorry" I say without making eye contact.
She takes my hand and brings me to the bathroom and takes out the first aid kit from the cabinet "this may sting a little" Jamie says as she wipes the cuts with antibacterial wipes, I flinch in pain, fighting to hold back tears.
I feel bad for letting her down especially as I made a promise, I wasn't thinking at the time I just wanted to numb the pain. I should of messaged or called her like she said to when I feel like shit.
She gently wraps a bandage round my wrist and then puts away the first aid kit "there you go all sorted, you need to not do this to yourself you don't deserve it". I nod nervously and look at her she takes my hand and brings me back downstairs "let's go join the others and eat".
I shake my head and loosen from her grip and take a step back as I tear up. Jamie stops and looks at me with worry in her eyes "what's going on Billie".
I know I've messed up and Jamie can tell something is going on........
