I've had problems since I was a kid, once I was nine, I got my first scar. I broke a picture frame and used the glass on my wrist...
I was an accident, I'm the least favorite child. I'm not that popular, I get picked on. I'm only twelve years old. If I talk back or misbehave, my mother hits me. I feel worthless, I feel invisible.
I'm in sixth grade, I have friends but none are vary close. I've never even had my first kiss(dated a guy, my parents don't let me date, and he was a jerk) so I'm as single as a Pringle! All the guys I know, I don't like.
I'm an outcast and a rebel. My friends say I'm crazy, I'm constantly suggesting we vandalize the school with graffiti, I even tell them I'll take the blame. People always call me "nerd" just because I get good grades and I read a lot. Honestly though, I NEVER study and only read fiction. I always say "I'm not a nerd, I'm more of a geek"
Right now these three guys are always bullying me with their bullshit. Once they even sat there and tried to make me cry all lunch period, which they failed. I forgot to mention, I don't cry in front of people I wait til I'm home and in my room. I don't even cry in front of my family.
Only one friend knows that I cut, and she tells me to stop. Easier said then done. Another friend might know that I'm suicidal because I slipped up at a robotics competition while we we're having a conversation; "You have your darkness on the outside and happy deep down on the inside, I have the opposite" he said.
"That's because if I had it the other way around I would have already have killed myself and died" I responded
"Shut up"
"Why, its true"
I also don't eat much, that catches my moms attention, but I tell her I'm not hungry or feed my food to my dogs.
"A/N!~ I know, kinda depressing but the next chapter will be a bit happier!"
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