18~SKZ// (unfinished/closed)

Chan

September 12

It sucks to see the person you've had a crush on for years be happy with someone else. I'm glad he's happy but it still hurts. I wanted to cry as I watched him cuddle with Changbin. There was so much love in eyes each time he looked at him. I really should be over him already considering him and Changbin have been dating since I've known him. But I just can't seem to move on. Luckily I have Seungmin though. He's always been there for me. No matter what. He listens to me rant and knows all my secrets. I love him with everything in me and wouldn't trade him for anything. Him and I met when I first moved here from Australia. He introduced me to everyone in his friend group which is when I first met felix. I immediately fell in love with him. His freckles, his smile, his laugh. Him. I told Seungmin I liked him and was informed that he had a boyfriend already. I remember that night so clearly. I cried myself to sleep that night and many following nights. Seungmin knew I was hurting and tried to make it better. I appreciated the thought but it didn't really help. But I guess it is what it is and there's nothing I can do about it.

"Chan, do you have popcorn?" Jisung asked.

"Ya," I paused the movie and signaled Seungmin and Minho to follow me to help.

"Thank you Channie!!" Jisung yelled.

"Yup!" I yelled back.

I grabbed a few bags of popcorn and started cooking them.

"Min Min can you grab like four bowls please. Also Minho?"

"Hmm?"

"What was with you and Jisung?" I smiled knowing it made him flustered. I think we've all known about his crush Jisung but no one had said anything. We also knew that Ji reciprocated his feelings. Reason being, I talked to Jinnie. After I noticed Minhos feelings for Ji I asked Hyunjin if Jisung had said anything about liking anyone. That's when he told me that he likes Minho.

"U-Uh w-what? What do you mean?" Minho stuttered. Seungmin and I smiled at each other giving THAT look.

"Minho." Seungmin started, "We know you like him."

"WHAT!? HOW!?"

"Wait, you actually do?" I asked, surprised he admitted it.

"Fuck." Minho said, obviously embarrassed.

"Why didn't you tell us ? And why haven't you told Jisung?" Seungmin questioned.

"I just didn't wanna tell you guys. I figured you'd tease me about it. And it's not like he feels the same way anyways."

Seungmin and I knew we were thinking the same thing but didn't say anything. It wasn't really our place but we'd say something if it was really necessary. The popcorn was finally done and we headed back down stairs. The others were having their own conversation about their opinion on the movie so far. I handed a bowl to each of the couples and kept one for me and Seungmin. Minho already sat down with his and Jisungs bowl so we started the movie again.