Young and single ?

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So, Hi people ! Again i am sharing my experience. This time i am coming with the "Being youg & Single topic". :)

I had a long distance friend ( aka Zake to give him a name). Zake was a gentleman, really kind, funny and a patient person. We knew each other for about 1 year and 5 month. We had a good chemestry and everything was chill. Then Zake told me twice that he liked me. The first time i rejected him but stays friend with him.  Zake and I went trought different things, but we always seemed to get back at each other as friends. And on that particular day that i was calling him, he says it again. I responded by "idk about that right now, cause i wanna focus on my father up there".  I spent my night remembering how happy i felt with him and the little stuff we shared. And as i was thinking about it, i felt a lil BOUM BOUM** and some butterflies. I remember saying to myself after that call that, maybe i should give him a chance. So a week later, i told him that i liked him back. Cause i thought that i truly loved him. 

Then we started getting more open and closer to each other. We were like before but it was now getting more flirtatious. The more i walked with him in this new path and the more i became more observant on our relationship. There was def some stuff that i didn't agree with. He is a christian too but let's say that his words and thoughts towards me, was a bit hmm unpure. I  mean he is a man and he has desires but i just felt uncomfortable. But i was on that moment in the optic of learning about sanctification, and it really was not welcomed. And one day i saw something on the bible, and i asked myself  1000 questions. Like, Do i have the right to kiss ? I don't wanna have sex before marriage so is he gonna be ok with that ? My thoughts were filled with those :  Am i really invested on this relation ? If i put on him many restriction, he is maybe about to be tired of me and walk away.. 

And the more time passes the more i was stressed and concerned. It's like my internal peace was disterbed. A profound disinterest showed itself little by little in my side. Plus i felt like i was not able to maintain this relation. Like putting the effort anymore. More questions came later but one slapped me on the face. Do i see my future with that person, as a real partner ? And the response was no. As i was finding the information on the words, i came to the point that i didn't want to be a cause of sin for Zake, and vice versa. So i decided to take a lil time far away from him, and to just stay at the level of friendship. 

Conclusion : As i dugged more in my reflexion i saw that i knew nothing about romantic love. I learned that i was still not being able to take care about me so how would i do it with someone else. Like it wouldn't last. And knowing the person better before committing in any relationship is important. (1 Corinthian 7) is really a light to this kind of situation.  Also on my flirtatious period, i was too much having my head on the guy.  So i gave God less time that i should gave him. Which for me is a bad thing. Now i am on the stage that i appreciate my singleness fully. Being single is not pejorative, i feel like it is a great opportunity to be in the presence of the Lord and to build ourselves in faith and in every area of our life of course.  To learn about us, and to seek what is right. I would say to you, if u appreciate someone then both of u take your time to know you guys. See how your person is in real, how he act in general. And then ask u the right questions and also open the question box for your person too. To know where to position yourself. The effort on a relationship has to come in both sides.  Never forget to ask the holy spirit to lead u in the right direction.  I will end by saying that being young is a good blessing that u have to cherish.