My Testimony

Anxiety

Matthew 6:33-34 "But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be provided for you. Therefore don't worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Before I found the Lord I was lost, as I was also sucked into this sinful world. In my old life I was a sinful person, now I knew of God but I never known him to the point where we had a relationship. I was so deceived that I thought the things adults did was okay for adults to do but it wasn't for kids.. but when we got older and grew into adults we would be able to do these things to. The world seems to add its own little twist to things when it comes to sin. For example, cursing, the world puts it as adults can do it, but kids can't. In reality neither can...

Proverbs 13:3- "who ever guard their lips persevere their lives, but those who speak rashly will come to ruin."

Anxiety was something that I never thought would happen to me but the Lord has plans for us all and sometimes he lets things happen for our good! And I'm blessed and thankful that he does because if not I would have never found him and turned my life over to him.

The first time i have ever felt anxiety was when I had just finished eating. I walked to my room sat down got on my phone for a couple of minutes then I started to feel weird. At the time it was scary because I had never felt that feeling before but it was like a feeling of panic. I remember feeling hot and feeling like I couldn't breathe. At first I tried to ignore it but it built more panic because again I never felt that feeling before. After telling my mom she began to worry and she took me to the ER because neither of us knew what was happening. A doctor came in and told me it was a panic attack or anxiety attack. We were all confused because I didn't know how it started or what triggered it. All I remembered was me being on my phone but I forgot what I looked at. By the way this was in the beginning of summer in 2020.

An hour or so after leaving the hospital we were getting something to eat and it happened again. Once again my mom rushed me to a different ER one that was closer, then they transferred me over to the other one.
These attack lasted about a month and a half maybe of me just having them. It added stress to it all because I was so afraid of having them that I think I just made them come more often because of the stress that I was having. All of my bones were tense and it was the most hardest thing that I had ever went through in my life it was just fear and anxiety just building each day. Some times I was even afraid to fall asleep. But I also very supportive people to help me through it like my mom, friend and grandma. They were the ones who always told me to pray, read my Bible, and to just turn to the Lord. I struggled at first because sometimes I did and other times I didn't. Eventually I did turn to him and he was there for me but what I didn't know is that he was always there for me. I just didn't really bother to pay attention. As I was reading my Bible and praying he was getting healing me in the process. Even though I did pray and read my Bible sometimes I still struggled to just stay consistent in doing it. As I began to feel less anxious and stressed I would stop but then it would build back up again because I stopped giving my time to God and staying fully submitted into getting close to him.

I can say after this as time went by I found myself wanted to know the Lord more and more everyday. I had the flame. You know that fire that you have when you just want to get closer and closer to the Lord to where you want to seek him more everyday without stoping. Yes me to lol. With me having my flame he healed me throughout time as each day went by he was healing me. He was making me stronger and preparing me for things that were to come.

As time went on I am proud to say that I repented form my sins and ask for forgiveness and just gave my life fully to God! My friend had an idea to start a Bible study group with some friends from school and sometimes when she is unable to post she would ask me and I would do it.

During this season in my life, at the time I don't think I had ever prayed so much in my life. For healing, peace, joy, strength, health and so much more.

John 15:7- "If you remain in me, and my words remain in you. Ask whatever you wish and it will be done for you."
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Now as I looked back at everything I have been through I'm blessed because if I had not went through it all I may not have found the lord and I may have not been a Christian. The lord has plans for us all and sometimes you may hit a rough patch and may go through trials. But it will be all for your good!! Just remember that the lord has not left you!! And he never will! ( Hebrews 13:5-6) The Lord will always be with us all, no matter what. ( Matthew 28:20).
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I hope that this has inspired you all to never give up and to never doubt the Lord and his plans for YOU. He loves us all and nothing will be able to separate us from his love.( Romans 8:38-39). No matter what season your in continue to give thanks to our father in Heaven because he is GREAT!!! I love you all but remember GOD loves you most!! Have a blessed day and may God bless you all! -Kiyah❤️