Love Is A Four-Letter Lie (Under Revision)

Prologue

Chris's POV

Because of the Three – Day Seminar with my fans I have to 'effin go back here. It's not as if I hate them. I mean they were my fans and they were the people who believed in me. I just hate the idea that I have to stay here.

Why?

Because of 'what ifs'.

Period.

"You seemed uncomfortable. Are you okay?" Juliet asked.

"Yeah."

I'm being sarcastic. I rolled my eyes.

"I don't get you, Chris. Other people would be glad that they are here in their own country but unlike you, you looked troubled. You're hiding from someone? Are you an ex-convict here?"

I raised my eyebrow.

"OhEmGee!! Famous artist Chris Kim of France was an ex-convict!"

She was exaggerating things. She also put one hand on her mouth, her eyes widened, trying to pose as if she was in a bit of shock.

I frowned.

Psh.

Why do I have to deal with this woman? We had been together for almost three years and she never grow up. She is always like that. She is a nagger and she annoyed me so much.

I hate her.

Not literally, I just hate her being her but I can't live without her.

I love her.

Get it? Nah? I don't get it too.

It's just that sometimes she's getting to my nerve.

"So tell me about your deepest secret, what happened?"

She is getting to my nerve again. Why did she ask if she already knew the answer?

I just rolled my eyes and pretended that she's not there.

I scanned my phone.

"38 messages, 10 missed calls," I murmured.

Well, I'm expecting this to happen. One of my 'what ifs'. I sighed. I looked for Leo's number and tried to reach him.

"Fine." Juliet raised her two hands, meaning she'll stop. "Now, let's talk about business. Tomorrow's schedule will be -------"

"Later Juliet." I said then I stood up. I went to the kitchen to get some drinks. I did that so I can get away from Juliet's lecture.

There. It's ringing. I mean, I was trying to reach Leo, remember?

"Sup dude? Buti naman tumawag ka. San ka ngayon?" He asked with excitement. It's all written in his voice.

"Give me a reason why should I tell you."

Geez.I missed this dude. I badly want to meet him but I can't.

Personal reason.

"It is because we were friends?" He asked while laughing heartily.

I chuckled. "Are we?"

Silence.

Silence.

Silence.

Silence.

Silence.

Leo broke the silence. "I heard about the Three – Day Seminar. In case you changed your mind and you wanted to meet your old friends ---" He even emphasized the word, old friends. Then he stopped and sighed. "Birthday ni Sharry sa Sunday. Tawagan mo lang ako so I can tell everyone that you're coming. Okay?"

I slowly opened my mouth to say something but I closed it again. I just can't find the right words to say.

Sharry's birthday.

It's Sharry's birthday!

Geez.I 'effin forgot about her birthday!

"Hey?"

"Is everybody coming?"

"Yeah." I can see him nodding even we're just on the phone. "Except for Samantha and Ivan. Second honeymoon kasi nila at next month pa ang uwi nila dito sa 'Pinas."

I nodded. "Okay."

"And about Jed, I think hindi siya makakapunta. Training, you know."

Silence.

Silence.

Silence.

Jed. Jed. Jed.

His name is ringing in my head. He was the last person that I wanted to meet. If possible, I don't want to hear his name.

Oh geez, Leo stops cursing. Psh.

"Teka nga, kailan ba ang balik mo sa Paris?"

"After the seminar."

Silence.

Silence.

Silence.

Silence.

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"Why are you so cold? Bakit ka nagbago? Bakit may nagbago?"

Is that so?

Did I really change?

Yeah, definitely. Maybe because everything has changed. Three years ago is far from what I am today. There are many painful memories that I wanted to forget.

But geez..they once became my life. I don't want to forget my friends, most especially Karyn and Jed but everything has to change.

I had my reasons.

I feel so freaking empty when I realized that eventually, we have to part our ways. We were together for so many years and I never imagine myself living without them. I hate missing them, I hate waking up every day feeling so freaking empty because of them and I hate the fact that every day I was thinking of how the name Karyn and Jed broke my heart.

It's killing me.

"Why?" He asked coldly.

I did not answer. Several minutes passed when I heard his voice again.

"I'm not expecting this from you. Pero puwede bang isama mo si Karyn this coming Sunday?" After that, he hanged up.

*sigh*

Why do I need to tell her if she doesn't want to look back anymore?