Tw: dysphorie, pensées s*icidaires?

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   lov                   body  hat
I        e me. My                    es me.
   hat                   mind  lov

   sh          di
I       ould      e.
    c           liv

My mind doesn't match my body
I'd
Like
To
Stop everything.
Be a boy but not too much
A girl but I'd fuck up
Timothy Chalamet
Thomas
Gerard Way
Fuck it

Particles that's it

A androgynous boy, masculine but not that much. I aspire to be tall. That's all. That's what I ask. Why can't I die when this isn't real

I used to pray to the stars to wake up a boy, thinner and taller, just like the boys in my class

It never happened. I wanted to die. Used to think dysphoria didn't catch me until I had to tell myself what I was to feel better

I am a boy. But I don't feel bad as a girl. I'd like to take T to masculinise my body, just enough to be Gerard Way

When I see myself in the mirror I look at my body, and I don't think anything. My face, and I like it.

Just
Stop
It

-Aléa

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