I hate the way I wrote chapter 21 of the old version of this, so I'm not going to include it. Sorry if that's not what you want, but I really don't think I can post the chapter again without crying.
Liam-
Finally up and out of bed, Louis had staked his claim on the couch. We had showered and I made sure he brushed his teeth and ate something, but now we were ready to binge-watch a show. I'd taken the day off of work just so I could do this with him, after honestly feeling horrible about how bitchy I'd been with him. If I had known he was feeling so low, it would have been different.
"Zayn's worried about me," he whispered, fiddling with the blanket quietly. "I know it's stupid, but I just don't want him to be so worried about me feeling like this. I feel like they'll all view me as less of a dom or something, and I don't think I can bear that."
"Lou, Zee just doesn't want to lose you. We came so close the last time this happened, none of us wants to risk it ever again. Nobody here will ever think of you as less." he nods and curls up, laying his head in my lap so that I'd play with his hair again. "We love you, and it scares us to think that you won't come to us when you need it. You stopped eating, Lou."
"I'll try to come to you if it happens again, I just hate feeling so dependent. You know where it got me before." I nod and stroke his face, tearing up at the fact that I hadn't been able to spot it. At the fact that he still felt like that after we had worked hard to build him back up. "It's not your fault. You can't read minds, Li. You didn't know. You didn't know."
"I know. Just— I love you, okay? Remember that. I need you to remember that for me."
"I know you do, and I love you too. I just have a hard to understand it all sometimes. Let's watch something. Niall has a short shift today, so he'll be back before the fourth episode."
