Gone with the wind

III

TW: Panic attack (not detailed), self harm, blades and blood, read with care.

Remember to stay safe loves <3

Thana wakes up, sweat falling down from her forehead, she's hyperventilating. The picture of whatever dream she had was long gone, she knows it will be impossible to fall asleep again and decides to get up.

Her throat is dry and soar, it feels like sand, she goes down to the kitchen and downs a glass of water.

She moves to her room and scrolls mindlessly on tiktok.

She feels drained, why? She's not quite sure.

Thana's heart stops when she sees a video. It's the clip from her stream when someone asked if she ate anything and a video when someone asked how she was, most people had forgotten about it after the stream, but not everyone obviously.

Her heart starts beating fast, it feels like it is beating out of her chest. Her breathing is ragged.

Thana hurries into the bathroom and sinks to the floor, she does the one thing she knows to ground herself.

The razor is sharp against her skin. The sharp pain brings tears to her eyes but she doesn't stop.

It started with one cut, it was enough to get her down to earth, but she continued. 1...2...3...10... the pain feels nice, deserved even.

Her arms are filled with new fresh cuts. She washes the blood off and is quick with putting a bandage on before she drags the sleeves of her shirt down.

Thana wasn't sure how she ended up on her phone with hers and Meir's conversation open, but in some way she did.

___________________________________The pervo____________________________________

Uhm hey- are you free?

The Pervo

yeah i am! why?

cool cool, are you able to facetime or something?

The Pervo

Sure! Two seconds:]

okkk:)

________________________________________________________________________________

She got an incoming call, Meir. She answers it after not even one second.

"Hey bitch," she exclaims, pretty loudly with a smile on her face. "Hey!" Meir says with a little laugh.

"Did you want anything special?" He asked, probably trying to hide his worry but failing. "Not really no, just wanted to talk you know," yes it was a lie, but what was she supposed to say 'yeah I called you cause i needed comfort because I'm fucking messed up in the head or some shit' hell nah. "Ah ok!" He answered, and they talked for a few hours.

"I gotta go to sleep, it's late," Meir spoke up. Thana falls quiet and stops talking about whatever she was talking about before.

"Stay on call, please," she says, quietly. "I wish I could but I really gotta go," Meir answered.

"We can sleep call!" Thana says fastly. The other side goes quiet, shit, did she take it too far? He will probably hate her now. Oh no no no no. "If you don't want to we don't have to of cou-"

He cut her off, "I would love to."

The call is silent. "Wait really?" Thana breaks the silence with her question. "Of course!" Meir answers with a big smile.

They talk for some time before both of them fall asleep.

wc: 505

This is kinda shit but uhm, here you go Lava

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