I can't sleep
i'm sorry, I feel like such a burden to you and I don't wanna text you in the middle of the night because I don't wanna wake you up.
I feel like I complain all the time, and I'm sorry about that I don't wanna make you sad by being sad all the time. I want to be happy and not think about depressing thoughts but sometimes I can't stop it
I don't know how.
I don't want to be sad, you make me so happy and I feel so comfortable with you but I feel like I'm gonna get scared and shut down and push you away. Then you'll get tired of me, I don't want to lose you.
And I don't know why am telling you this it's just me and my insecurities getting stuck in my own head again.
I'll be fine, I always am just fine.
I just overreact it's OK though I just need to get over it and stop making such a big deal out of stupid thoughts. I need to stop piling my problems on you, maybe talk to God more.
I don't even know why am texting this I'm not gonna send it because I don't want to worry you so goodnight, I love you so much. Maybe tomorrow I will have courage and I'll tell you how I'm feeling but for tonight I'll just keep it to myself.
