Would you even waste time on loving someone like me?

why did it have to happen to you, why did you have to smoke

On the way to the hospital I stayed quiet. One of the paramedics asked me if Garcello was my boyfriend

"Is he your boyfriend?" The paramedic asked. A part of me wanted to say yes but.. that wasn't true I didn't even know if Garcello liked me like that. Maybe friends with benefits. Because friends dont just kiss. I know I said that was his prize for not smoking, but still. We arrive at the hospital, of course I had to wait in the waiting room. I was fine with that. Till the doctor came out looking for me

"Is everything alright, is he going to be ok?"I asked

"Well... he has lung cancer and we have to treat it right away" the doctor said

"That's good right? Because your treating it" I say worried

"Yes.. well we don't know how long he has had cancer for and he might not recover. Wake up. Now we want to ask for your permission to be doing the surgery" the doctor said

Take deep breaths in out...in out

"Ok you have my permission" I say. The doctor nodded and walked off. I sit down trying to calm my self down, the room felt like it was starting to get hot. I felt like o was going to pass out. I walk over to the front desk

"Hi.. excuse me do you have a water fountain near by" I say. Trying not to stutter

"Yes right down the hall to your left" the front desk lady said

"T-thanks" I whimpered. I walk down the hall to find the water fountain, I take a cup and fill it with water. My hand holding the cup started shaking

He's going to be ok.. I just know it

I head back to the waiting room, my hands still shaking. After about 2 hours go by, the doctor comes back. I get up to greet him

"Is he ok?" I ask nervously

"Yes the surgery went well but... there is a possibility that the cancer could come back. But for right now he needs. And maybe think about in rolling him into rehab" The doctor said

Rehab...

"C-c-can I see him" I stutter 

"Right. Of course, follow me" The doctor said. I followed him into this room where Garcello was laying. The doctor leaves the room leaving Garcello and I alone. He was still asleep. I walk over to his bed and sit in the chair that was next to his bed. I find the remote to the T.V that was sitting on a side table next to the chair, I decide to turn on the news and the first thing that came on was a man of the name Billie Joe Armstrong was sent to jail for violence and potential rape. I immediately turned off the T.V. I looked at Garcello who seemed to be waking up, he started to stir around in bed. I took his hand and squeezed it tight but not tight enough to hurt him, hoping that he would squeeze it back. I was surprised because that is what he did. It made me smile

"Hey.." I say. Garcello looks at me rubbing sleep from his eyes  

"Hey" He says back 

" How are you feeling" I ask

"I feel like shit and I'm tired and sore" Garcello whined 

"I bet. I'm going to go find a doctor ok" I say softly

"Ok" he replies