... im didn't stop loving you ... i never stopped ... what actually happened is that my mind is refusing the fact that you love me back.. and thats how my pride tells me its useless to show ur love when u r only gonna get hurt not appreciated ... ur love is useless to him why bother? Does it even worth anything?
Did you actually force him into your relationship? Is he being forced to be with you? If so u should let him have his choice made by himself and thats how he ll choose to leave you ... because u r not actually loved...
I just wish i could explain myself in a better way ... i just wish to be understood... im not heartless i dnt have a cold heart ... im boiling inside im just bad at loosing it ... im used to looking composed and if i loose it then i dnt give a shit anymore ... i have a calm outside that hides a great effect on the inside ... i get affected way more than normal people .. it just can't be showen ... you of all people should know that the best and understand me ... put urself at my place ... be gentle with my nature ... love me .. if you do for real then i shouldnt ask for it ... i shouldn't be the one to blame when i stop showin my love while i get nothin but critics ... i stop when i overthink ... u should be the one to ease my mind not the one yo break it down into pieces where each one is trying to get a hold over one completely different problem than another ... i ve always said that i d like to at least feel at ease about my romantic life's side ... i want to at least trust that side so that i can only obssess over the others ... but life doesnt work that way unfortunately....
Good night
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RandomNot really a story, just me rambling going on an on, overthinking or even just writing anything that comes to my mind.. so its not really meant for people go read it but it they want to then sure I don't mind. ∆ no real names should be written here...
